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“You Are Our Lifeboat” by Dan Leinir Turthra Jensen (part 1 of 2)
A crew of uplifted rats servicing and living on board a spaceship learn that there is more to their life than they had been led to believe
Today’s story is the first of two parts of “You Are Our Lifeboat” by Dan Leinir Turthra Jensen, or just leinir, who can usually be found relaxing in the English Midlands, where they split their time between cooking usually delicious food, writing various bits of social realism and science fiction, or creating free and open source software in the KDE project. Sometimes all three happen at the same time, and they tell me that sci fi epic they’ve been working on the last most of a decade is getting closer to wrapping up.
While waiting for that to land, if you would like more after this one, you can find more of their stories in the anthologies found on their GoodReads profile at goodreads.com/leinir. This story in particular can be found in the FurPlanet anthology Exploring New Places, where a variety of animal people go out and explore a wide variety of new places.
Read for you by Khaki, your faithful fireside companion.
Transcript
You’re listening to The Voice of Dog. I’m Khaki, your faithful fireside companion,
Speaker:and Today’s story is the first of two parts of
Speaker:“You Are Our Lifeboat”
Speaker:by Dan Leinir Turthra Jensen,
Speaker:or just leinir, who can usually be found relaxing in the English Midlands,
Speaker:where they split their time between cooking usually delicious food,
Speaker:writing various bits of social realism and science fiction,
Speaker:or creating free and open source software in the KDE project.
Speaker:Sometimes all three happen at the same time,
Speaker:and they tell me that sci fi epic they’ve been working on the last most of a decade
Speaker:is getting closer to wrapping up.
Speaker:While waiting for that to land, if you would like more after this one,
Speaker:you can find more of their stories in the anthologies found on their GoodReads profile
Speaker:at goodreads.com/leinir. This story in particular
Speaker:can be found in the FurPlanet anthology
Speaker:Exploring New Places,
Speaker:where a variety of animal people go out and explore a wide variety of new places.
Please enjoy:“You Are Our Lifeboat”
Please enjoy:by Dan Leinir Turthra Jensen, Part 1 of 2 Excitement and delight.
Please enjoy:That was the feeling which seemed to flow around me those twenty eight years ago.
Please enjoy:That was when I first stepped out of the transport case
Please enjoy:and put my paws on the deck.
Please enjoy:The day I and the rest of the thousand-strong crew of
Please enjoy:engineered caretaker rats
Please enjoy:had been brought from the training facilities and onto the ship
Please enjoy:we had trained to maintain our entire lives,
Please enjoy:and which would soon
Please enjoy:be headed for Proxima B.
Please enjoy:We had entered the ship,
Please enjoy:expecting a lot of rooms with equipment that would need tending,
Please enjoy:the way our training cabins had been laid out.
Please enjoy:Instead we had been met with a maze of twisting tubes,
Please enjoy:splitting and combining.
Please enjoy:Endless runs of corridors for us to scamper through
Please enjoy:to get between pieces of kit.
Please enjoy:It had been much more like our recreational areas,
Please enjoy:the fun runs that we had run through as pups,
Please enjoy:just much larger
Please enjoy:and with equipment for us to work on.
Please enjoy:It all remained as wonderful to us through the journey as it had seemed to us that first day.
Please enjoy:Our home to be for the nearly two decades worth of a trip
Please enjoy:to that distant star
Please enjoy:had been designed to not simply support us physically,
Please enjoy:but challenge us mentally as well.
Please enjoy:To keep us fit and in shape,
Please enjoy:so we would be able to perform our maintenance duties.
Please enjoy:Training had given us the skills needed to maintain the equipment,
Please enjoy:and the leader of the team which had created us
Please enjoy:had ensured we would be able to adapt,
Please enjoy:trained us to understand changing circumstances
Please enjoy:and to deal with them.
Please enjoy:In space, you had to deal with what you had.
Please enjoy:Couldn't just order in some new bits from a shop,
Please enjoy:because the nearest one might very possibly be literal light years away.
Please enjoy:We had never seen the outside of the ship,
Please enjoy:but when we boarded, we soon learned the layout of it;
Please enjoy:at least we technicians did who had the task of keeping it running.
Please enjoy:Most of our crew did basic maintenance of the systems
Please enjoy:or any of the other many things which needed to be done to maintain the crew itself,
Please enjoy:but the oldest of us had been able to train longer.
Please enjoy:We had known more about the systems of the ship
Please enjoy:than our shipmates.
Please enjoy:We knew there were parts of the ship
Please enjoy:that not everybody was aware of,
Please enjoy:but even we who had been granted such knowledge
Please enjoy:did not really know what it was.
Please enjoy:How could we have known.
Please enjoy:We had been taught to adapt,
Please enjoy:but you could hardly adapt to something you were not aware of.
Please enjoy:We had not been taught about the world that brought us into reality.
Please enjoy:Our creator had made sure we had been spared the realities of that world
Please enjoy:until finally, one day eighteen years into the trip,
Please enjoy:she had no choices left but her final one.
Please enjoy:The choice she made
Please enjoy:was to give us one of our own. #
Please enjoy:I flicked an ear at something that sounded like panting and claws clicking rapidly against plastic.
Please enjoy:I pulled myself out from underneath the gently humming air cycling unit I was working on
Please enjoy:and sniffed at the air.
Please enjoy:As my nose tried to detect whose claws it might be,
Please enjoy:my gaze searched for the source of the sound,
Please enjoy:following the soft, sweeping line of the transit tube which snaked its way
Please enjoy:through the insides of the ship.
Please enjoy:The soft, nobbly surface allowed air to travel with less turbulence
Please enjoy:than had it simply been smooth.
Please enjoy:It also allowed the claws of our paws to propel us along both speedily and safely,
Please enjoy:the way someone was doing now,
Please enjoy:approaching me at what sounded like a fair clip.
Please enjoy:"Twentree!" came a familiar voice from down from the tube,
Please enjoy:the same direction the sound I had heard had come from.
Please enjoy:The voice was rapidly followed by the scent,
Please enjoy:and the scampering, white-furred shape of one of my crewmates.
Please enjoy:A junior tech, one of those who had been made towards the end
Please enjoy:just before we had left Earth.
Please enjoy:One of those I had helped train,
Please enjoy:and who would take over for me
Please enjoy:when I finally became too old to perform my duties. "Twentree," he said again, the nearest he was able to get to saying my name, the number
Please enjoy:twenty three.
Please enjoy:"Quick!" Our mouths were hardly designed for speech the way our makers had it,
Please enjoy:but we still managed something recognisably like words.
Please enjoy:A great deal of information could be conveyed through body language, which of course we did,
Please enjoy:but sometimes words were just more useful.
Please enjoy:Our paws lent themselves even less to the sign language
Please enjoy:some of our creators' creations employed
Please enjoy:than our mouths did to words,
Please enjoy:and so, adding in a little gesturing and body language, we had chosen the lesser of two problems.
Please enjoy:Even then, sometimes it was awkward.
Please enjoy:Sevenhundredandfourtythree had an annoyingly large number of sounds in it
Please enjoy:that a rat's cleft lip did not allow me to easily produce.
Please enjoy:Our creator had taught us to adapt,
Please enjoy:so we improvised. "Sehunsotre,"
Please enjoy:I replied and pulled myself all the way out from the machine.
Please enjoy:I moved to stand upright on my hind paws in the low gravity,
Please enjoy:because composure was important.
Please enjoy:Especially with an overexcited junior technician before you.
Please enjoy:I deliberately perked my ears
Please enjoy:and calmly raised my muzzle just a little,
Please enjoy:a slight frown on my brow as I sniffed at him inquisitively.
Please enjoy:Detecting a strong taint of worry through his scent,
Please enjoy:I did my best to retain my own calm,
Please enjoy:in part to help him.
Please enjoy:"Junior. Relax. What happen?"
Please enjoy:The young rat calmed himself
Please enjoy:and sat up on his haunches,
Please enjoy:curling his tail around his feet in embarrassment
Please enjoy:but still managing to remember to rub the top of his muzzle in greeting.
Please enjoy:He was panting hard,
Please enjoy:and I thought he had likely run all the way from command.
Please enjoy:It would not be anything normal:
Please enjoy:If there was something urgent in need of fixing,
Please enjoy:the ship's intercom was plenty capable of conveying this need.
Please enjoy:If he was here panting like this,
Please enjoy:either a superior had sent him here for some claw polish
Please enjoy:and was currently laughing with the rest of their team,
Please enjoy:or it was something distinctly out of the ordinary.
Please enjoy:Our location was nowhere near any of the equipment stores,
Please enjoy:and while he was a junior,
Please enjoy:he had been one for eighteen years.
Please enjoy:It did not seem likely to be the former.
Please enjoy:"Excuse, Sir," he said between breaths,
Please enjoy:his bright, red eyes glistening in the light as he spoke.
Please enjoy:He breathed in deeply,
Please enjoy:eyes closed, and exhaled slowly.
Please enjoy:He opened his eyes and looked at me more directly, properly.
Please enjoy:"Control said go, get you. Tell alarm.
Please enjoy:Ring zero alarm."
Please enjoy:"Ring zero alarm?"
Please enjoy:I enquired. No claw polish.
Please enjoy:My twitching whiskers betrayed the worry I attempted to keep inside,
Please enjoy:and doubtless my young friend realised this,
Please enjoy:his own whiskers twitching in solidarity.
Please enjoy:"Not know," he said
Please enjoy:and got back down on all fours,
Please enjoy:and crawled closer.
Please enjoy:"One said get. Tell run quick.
Please enjoy:quick." He pointed his nose to the unit I had been working on.
Please enjoy:"I handle cycler." The last he said with a more confident air about him,
Please enjoy:and I realised I might have misinterpreted his mood.
Please enjoy:Not so much worry as perhaps just straight forward exhaustion.
Please enjoy:He had just run a fair distance,
Please enjoy:one of our youngest on a mission from the oldest rat on board.
Please enjoy:"K. Nearly done.
Please enjoy:Clean to do. Then done,"
Please enjoy:I said, attempting to relax my own expression,
Please enjoy:and nodded to the young tech before heading off in the direction he had come from.
Please enjoy:He might well have been junior,
Please enjoy:but he was practically as skilled as me.
Please enjoy:I had been ten years old when we left Earth,
Please enjoy:and had five years of training on tech before we left.
Please enjoy:He had been a part of the last five hundred to be created
Please enjoy:and had only just got his eyes when we left,
Please enjoy:and had grown up on board the ship.
Please enjoy:I'd spent the last thirteen years teaching him everything I knew.
Please enjoy:That air cycler was in safe hands.
Please enjoy:We knew the humans had realised they could not go themselves, because,
Please enjoy:so our creators had told us,
Please enjoy:they were fragile.
Please enjoy:No human was physically able to take the strain of such a journey.
Please enjoy:Those who had created both us and the ship had told us this,
Please enjoy:and that they had taken the opportunity to construct us together.
Please enjoy:Design a crew that fit a ship which could in turn be designed for that crew.
Please enjoy:With no need to fit in support for the fragile human physiology,
Please enjoy:they had build a ship
Please enjoy:which would prepare its cargo,
Please enjoy:as well as its crew, us,
Please enjoy:for the conditions we were likely to encounter at our destination.
Please enjoy:It would spend the first half of the trip
Please enjoy:burning to get up to speed,
Please enjoy:and then flip and spend the rest burning to slow back down again.
Please enjoy:It had run almost entirely on auto,
Please enjoy:with only slight adjustments from our command crew.
Please enjoy:Since we would be on our way for a fair few years,
Please enjoy:it had been decided that running life support as a closed system was the best idea.
Please enjoy:A simplified biosphere,
Please enjoy:with tightly controlled members:
Please enjoy:Just us, and a selection of plants and bacteria as designed as us and the ship.
Please enjoy:The plants and bacteria supporting us,
Please enjoy:us supporting the ship,
Please enjoy:and the ship supporting all of us.
Please enjoy:As far as we knew,
Please enjoy:this is how it had been intended to work.
Please enjoy:Everything we had been told from we were born,
Please enjoy:everything the techs and our trainers had suggested nothing else.
Please enjoy:The first ship containing life to go to another star.
Please enjoy:Built with great speed, following the excitement of the discovery that there were several stars with habitable planets,
Please enjoy:and that the nearest of those
Please enjoy:was even at the nearest star to Earth.
Please enjoy:The ship was a long stack of rings with engines at one end.
Please enjoy:The rings were separated by empty space
Please enjoy:but connected by our tubes and a central hub
Please enjoy:by four spokes each.
Please enjoy:The entire thing was covered in large tanks, full of
Please enjoy:water, protecting the delicate biological entities inside the ship from radiation,
Please enjoy:and the tanks in turn
Please enjoy:protected from impacts
Please enjoy:by thick outer bulkheads.
Please enjoy:The rings were numbered zero through nineteen,
Please enjoy:and the majority were cargo.
Please enjoy:Just a big bunch of container holds which the thousand of us took turns patrolling
Please enjoy:to make sure were stable and intact.
Please enjoy:Numbered from the middle, with zero in the centre of the ship,
Please enjoy:the uneven numbered rings were towards the engine end.
Please enjoy:The rear, so to speak,
Please enjoy:though for latter half of the journey it was pointed in the direction of travel.
Please enjoy:Ring nineteen contained control and engineering where I was headed to meet One,
Please enjoy:and was at the far rear.
Please enjoy:The even numbered rings were towards the other end,
Please enjoy:which might be called the front,
Please enjoy:and ring eighteen at the tip of the ship was our habitat.
Please enjoy:A thousand large rats comfortably holed up in warm nests
Please enjoy:at the front of the ship.
Please enjoy:This, of course, was been where I had been working in one of the spokes to the central hub.
Please enjoy:Further out the rotation would simulate gravity at an Earth like level,
Please enjoy:but that near to the hub
Please enjoy:there was not a great deal of it.
Please enjoy:Nice enough every so often,
Please enjoy:but it wasn't healthy for very long,
Please enjoy:so we tried to only go to the low gravity sections when we had to.
Please enjoy:So not only had I been at the opposite end of the ship,
Please enjoy:I had also been halfway to the hub.
Please enjoy:You never seem to find yourself in a convenient location when you are suddenly required to be somewhere specific.
Please enjoy:Ring zero, in the middle of the ship
Please enjoy:and where I had to pass through,
Please enjoy:was the ring that nobody outside of a few core people was supposed to know existed.
Please enjoy:Just a gap in the maps between ring one and two
Please enjoy:that only a few techs knew had something in it other than scurry tubes.
Please enjoy:After all, since nobody was supposed to go into ring zero,
Please enjoy:why should anybody know it was there?
Please enjoy:Only the first thirty even knew it existed.
Please enjoy:The Singulars and the tens because command was command,
Please enjoy:and us twenties because well,
Please enjoy:general maintenance of the energy feeds had to happen.
Please enjoy:It had an impact on the structural integrity of the ship itself,
Please enjoy:and so we had to know the mass distribution of it.
Please enjoy:But if any of the other twenty nine knew what was inside,
Please enjoy:outside of how much mass it contained, well,
Please enjoy:they hadn't told me.
Please enjoy:Not that I had asked, of course.
Please enjoy:It wasn't something I needed to know,
Please enjoy:and I had plenty of things to work on.
Please enjoy:Panting as heavily as Sehunsotre had done,
Please enjoy:I arrived at the intersection between command
Please enjoy:and the much larger engineering section in ring nineteen,
Please enjoy:and I made a quick stop at a wash station to clean myself up a bit.
Please enjoy:The wash was a quick one,
Please enjoy:because it seemed decidedly important I made haste,
Please enjoy:but cleanliness being important, and this being One,
Please enjoy:it was something I felt I had to do.
Please enjoy:It had the side effect of allowing my breathing and my hammering heart to calm down again.
Please enjoy:Feeling more relaxed,
Please enjoy:and considerably cleaner,
Please enjoy:two things that always seemed connected,
Please enjoy:I made my way up the wide scurry tube from the intersection wash station
Please enjoy:and around the ring to the centre of command.
Please enjoy:About half way there,
Please enjoy:I caught up to Twenty,
Please enjoy:lead tech, and a good friend since we had got our eyes.
Please enjoy:He was one of the few of us with a colour other than white in his fur,
Please enjoy:one brown-tipped ear.
Please enjoy:Even with our not exactly amazing vision,
Please enjoy:he was visible at a distance.
Please enjoy:We sniffed at each other in greeting,
Please enjoy:both of us familiar with the scent of the other,
Please enjoy:and I detected a touch of worry in his,
Please enjoy:the way he surely did in mine.
Please enjoy:"Lo Twentree," he said as we both continued towards command,
Please enjoy:and frowned as he asked
Please enjoy:"know happen?" "Not know,"
Please enjoy:was all I could say,
Please enjoy:though I was sure my own frown and my twitching whiskers told of my worry at the situation.
Please enjoy:"Run quick command.
Please enjoy:See One. Junior said.
Please enjoy:Ring zero alert?" "Junior?
Please enjoy:Know ring zero?" he asked as his brow shot up and his ears suddenly perked,
Please enjoy:sounding about as confused as I had felt
Please enjoy:when Sevenhundredfourtythree
Please enjoy:had passed on the order.
Please enjoy:"No," I said and looked at him as we entered the command deck and headed,
Please enjoy:at a more calm pace,
Please enjoy:over to the far end where One, Two and Three
Please enjoy:laid when they were on duty,
Please enjoy:on rotating shifts
Please enjoy:the way the whole ship was.
Please enjoy:"Not know. Ring zero alert what?"
Please enjoy:"I tell," One said loudly from across the room as we made our way through the command deck.
Please enjoy:It was difficult to remember, sometimes,
Please enjoy:that her hearing was as good as it had ever been.
Please enjoy:Fifteen years my senior,
Please enjoy:One might well now be positively ancient,
Please enjoy:well over fourty years old.
Please enjoy:Her eyes had turned grey,
Please enjoy:and her fur had faded from our usual white to a whispy near translucency.
Please enjoy:Her mind, however,
Please enjoy:was as sharp as it ever had been,
Please enjoy:and her hearing as acute as her eyesight was not.
Please enjoy:"Am sorry, Sir," I said as we reached her,
Please enjoy:sitting up on our haunches
Please enjoy:and rubbing our ears and muzzles in salute.
Please enjoy:Both Twenty and I sniffed the air towards her,
Please enjoy:and detected in her only the slightest hint of the worry the two of us shared.
Please enjoy:"Get here. Tried quick.
Please enjoy:Hope okay." "Quick okay.
Please enjoy:Both," she said, sniffing at us as she rubbed one ear with a paw
Please enjoy:in the more relaxed fashion her grand seniority allowed.
Please enjoy:"My task. Soon done,"
Please enjoy:she said and pointed with that same paw
Please enjoy:to one of the large displays beside her.
Please enjoy:Normally they showed a mix of sensor outputs that the bridge crew used for operations,
Please enjoy:and feeds from cameras showing various parts of the ship's areas
Please enjoy:like engineering or the rec areas,
Please enjoy:or more commonly
Please enjoy:cycling through a view of the many cargo holds.
Please enjoy:The one she indicated to us, however,
Please enjoy:was showing something
Please enjoy:very different. I had no idea that there were cameras
Please enjoy:outside the ship, but apparently there were.
Please enjoy:It looked, I thought,
Please enjoy:somewhat more bulky than I had expected it would.
Please enjoy:More than that, though,
Please enjoy:was what was hanging in the star strewn space above the ship.
Please enjoy:We had arrived. Glancing to the side,
Please enjoy:I noticed Twenty's mouth hanging wide open,
Please enjoy:and I realised mine was as well, and closed it.
Please enjoy:"Ring zero secret.
Please enjoy:You know," she said,
Please enjoy:and we both nodded.
Please enjoy:"Hear now. It same secret.
Please enjoy:This ring zero. We given.
Please enjoy:End protocol change.
Please enjoy:Important things gone.
Please enjoy:We decide. What do now?"
Please enjoy:This was the the first of two parts of
Please enjoy:“You Are Our Lifeboat”
Please enjoy:by Dan Leinir Turthra Jensen,
Please enjoy:read for you by Khaki,
Please enjoy:your faithful fireside companion.
Please enjoy:Tune in next time to find out what our space-faring rat friends discover of their own lives,
Please enjoy:and what their collective future holds.
Please enjoy:As always, you can find more stories on the web at thevoice.dog,
Please enjoy:or find the show wherever you get your podcasts.
Please enjoy:And if this is a difficult time of your for you,
Please enjoy:when you’d want to be as busy and cozy and snug as these space-rats’ nests,
Please enjoy:and now feel as if you might as well be on Proxima B,
Please enjoy:please know that you’re not alone.
Please enjoy:You’re great, and I am your faithful fireside companion.
Please enjoy:Thank you for listening
Please enjoy:to The Voice of Dog.