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“All Of The Stars In The Sky” by Anhedral (read by BandanaDog)
On the dry steppe of central Asia, an unlikely romance blossoms between a burly Grey Wolf army engineer and his Unit’s twinkish Indian Wolf translator.
Today’s story is “All Of The Stars In The Sky” by Anhedral, a music teacher and writer whose works have appeared in ROAR, Werewolves Versus, and Wolves Dot Gay. You can find more of his stories at his FurAffinity.
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Transcript
You’re
Speaker:listening
Speaker:to
Speaker:Pride
Speaker:Month
Speaker:on
Speaker:The
Speaker:Voice
Speaker:of
Speaker:Dog.
Speaker:This
Speaker:is
Speaker:Rob
Speaker:MacWolf,
Speaker:your
Speaker:fellow
Speaker:traveler,
Speaker:and
Speaker:Today’s
Speaker:story
Speaker:is “All
Speaker:Of
Speaker:The
Speaker:Stars
Speaker:In
Speaker:The
Speaker:Sky”
Speaker:by
Speaker:Anhedral,
Speaker:a
Speaker:music
Speaker:teacher
Speaker:and
Speaker:writer
Speaker:whose
Speaker:works
Speaker:have
Speaker:appeared
Speaker:in
Speaker:ROAR,
Speaker:Werewolves
Speaker:Versus,
Speaker:and
Speaker:Wolves Dot Gay.
Speaker:You
Speaker:can
Speaker:find
Speaker:more
Speaker:of
Speaker:his
Speaker:stories
Speaker:at
Speaker:his
Speaker:FurAffinity.
No
matter
Speaker:how
Speaker:the
Speaker:bleakness
Speaker:seems
Speaker:to
Speaker:loom,
Speaker:whatever
Speaker:hopelessnesses
Speaker:haunt
Speaker:our
Speaker:hearts,
Speaker:however
Speaker:many
Speaker:losses
Speaker:we
Speaker:live
Speaker:through,
Speaker:as
Speaker:long
Speaker:as
Speaker:we
Speaker:live
Speaker:through
Speaker:them,
Speaker:Pride
Speaker:lives
Speaker:too.
Speaker:Survival
Speaker:seems
Speaker:a
Speaker:meagre
Speaker:victor’s
Speaker:wreath,
Speaker:but
Speaker:wreath
Speaker:of
Speaker:victory
Speaker:it
Speaker:is
Speaker:no
Speaker:less.
Speaker:And
Speaker:any
Speaker:day
Speaker:that
Speaker:we
Speaker:survive,
Speaker:it
Speaker:may
Speaker:yet
Speaker:bloom
Speaker:and
Speaker:be
Speaker:again
Speaker:victorious.
Read
by
Speaker:BandanaDog, Unorthodox
Speaker:Spacetime
Speaker:Drifter.
Please
enjoy
“All
Of
Speaker:The
Speaker:Stars
Speaker:In
Speaker:The Sky” by Anhedral
33 Regiment, Royal Engineers
encampment
Kalaqistan, central Asia
2 May, 2020
I lie on
my
Speaker:back
Speaker:and
Speaker:gaze
Speaker:at
Speaker:the
Speaker:river
Speaker:of
Speaker:stars
Speaker:shining high
Speaker:above.
In
the
Speaker:Persian
Speaker:city
Speaker:of
Speaker:my
Speaker:birth,
Speaker:I
Speaker:could
Speaker:never
Speaker:see
Speaker:the
Speaker:stars;
Speaker:there
Speaker:were
Speaker:just
Speaker:too
Speaker:many
Speaker:streetlamps.
Speaker:Out
Speaker:here
Speaker:on
Speaker:the
Speaker:Kalaq
Speaker:steppe, it's
Speaker:so
Speaker:dark
Speaker:that
Speaker:I
Speaker:can
Speaker:barely
Speaker:make
Speaker:out
Speaker:the
Speaker:shape
Speaker:of
Speaker:my
Speaker:own
Speaker:muzzle
Speaker:in
Speaker:front
Speaker:of
Speaker:me.
It's
also
Speaker:deathly-quiet,
Speaker:which
Speaker:is
Speaker:why
Speaker:I
Speaker:pick
Speaker:up
Speaker:the
Speaker:trudge
Speaker:of
Speaker:Peter's paws
Speaker:from
Speaker:a
Speaker:good
Speaker:five
Speaker:metres
Speaker:off,
Speaker:even
Speaker:though
Speaker:he's
Speaker:trying
Speaker:to
Speaker:be
Speaker:quiet.
Speaker:The
Speaker:grey
Speaker:wolf
Speaker:eases
Speaker:his
Speaker:powerful
Speaker:frame
Speaker:down
Speaker:beside
Speaker:me,
Speaker:and
Speaker:the
Speaker:eyes
Speaker:that
Speaker:burn
Speaker:with
Speaker:the
Speaker:brightest
Speaker:amber
Speaker:under
Speaker:sunlight
Speaker:now
Speaker:flash
Speaker:at
Speaker:me
Speaker:with
Speaker:an
Speaker:unworldly
Speaker:reddish
Speaker:gleam.
Speaker:I
Speaker:know it's
Speaker:just
Speaker:his eyeshine,
Speaker:here
Speaker:beneath
Speaker:the
Speaker:stars,
Speaker:but
Speaker:to
Speaker:a
Speaker:poor
Speaker:city-wolf
Speaker:like
Speaker:me
Speaker:it's
Speaker:still
Speaker:thrilling
Speaker:every time.
"Salaam, Pazir", he whispers, gruffly. "Haalet chetori?"
How are you,
he's
Speaker:just
Speaker:asked –
Speaker:it's
Speaker:the
Speaker:first
Speaker:phrase
Speaker:in
Speaker:Persian
Speaker:that
Speaker:I
Speaker:taught
Speaker:him.
Speaker:But
Speaker:of
Speaker:course
Speaker:he's
Speaker:just
Speaker:being
Speaker:polite,
Speaker:because
Speaker:he
Speaker:already
Speaker:knows
Speaker:the
Speaker:answer
Speaker:to
Speaker:his
Speaker:question
Speaker:without
Speaker:the
Speaker:need
Speaker:of
Speaker:any
Speaker:word
Speaker:from
Speaker:me.
Speaker:He'll
Speaker:have
Speaker:picked
Speaker:up
Speaker:my
Speaker:thumping
Speaker:heart
Speaker:and
Speaker:the
Speaker:scent
Speaker:of
Speaker:my
Speaker:quickening
Speaker:blood
Speaker:for
Speaker:sure.
The
scent
Speaker:that
Speaker:drives
Speaker:him
Speaker:crazy.
Speaker:I
Speaker:scoffed,
Speaker:when
Speaker:first
Speaker:he
Speaker:told
Speaker:me
Speaker:that.
Speaker:Now,
Speaker:after
Speaker:three
Speaker:long
Speaker:weeks
Speaker:out
Speaker:here
Speaker:in
Speaker:the
Speaker:wilds
Speaker:with
Speaker:him,
Speaker:I'm
Speaker:slowly
Speaker:coming
Speaker:to
Speaker:believe
Speaker:it.
"Salaam,
Peter.
Speaker:You're
Speaker:really
Speaker:coming
Speaker:on
Speaker:with
Speaker:your
Speaker:words,
Speaker:you
Speaker:know."
Speaker:I
Speaker:scoot
Speaker:closer
Speaker:to
Speaker:him,
Speaker:tuck
Speaker:my
Speaker:head
Speaker:beneath
Speaker:his
Speaker:arm. "So...
Speaker:off-duty at
Speaker:last?"
"Mmm.
We're
Speaker:good
Speaker:for
Speaker:half
Speaker:and
Speaker:hour
Speaker:or
Speaker:so,
Speaker:I
Speaker:think."
We
keep
Speaker:our
Speaker:voices
Speaker:low;
Speaker:we've
Speaker:not
Speaker:run
Speaker:into
Speaker:any
Speaker:insurgents
Speaker:for
Speaker:over
Speaker:a
Speaker:week,
Speaker:but
Speaker:you
Speaker:can
Speaker:never
Speaker:be
Speaker:too
Speaker:careful.
Speaker:I
Speaker:also
Speaker:know
Speaker:that
Speaker:the
Speaker:five
Speaker:on-duty
Speaker:grey
Speaker:wolves
Speaker:of
Speaker:his
Speaker:unit
Speaker:are
Speaker:currently
Speaker:scanning
Speaker:every
Speaker:last
Speaker:boulder
Speaker:and
Speaker:every
Speaker:last
Speaker:blade
Speaker:of
Speaker:tundra-grass
Speaker:out
Speaker:to a
Speaker:thousand
Speaker:metres
Speaker:with
Speaker:the
Speaker:night-vision
Speaker:scopes
Speaker:of
Speaker:their L129A1 rifles. They
Speaker:know
Speaker:their
Speaker:duty,
Speaker:and
Speaker:they're
Speaker:very
Speaker:good
Speaker:at
Speaker:what
Speaker:they
Speaker:do.
But
Peter
Speaker:isn't
Speaker:one
Speaker:of
Speaker:them –
Speaker:at
Speaker:least,
Speaker:not
Speaker:right
Speaker:now.
Speaker:His
Speaker:arms
Speaker:come
Speaker:around
Speaker:my
Speaker:slender
Speaker:frame
Speaker:to
Speaker:hold
Speaker:me.
Speaker:Compared
Speaker:to
Speaker:his
Speaker:grizzled
Speaker:one-seventy
Speaker:pounds
Speaker:of
Speaker:sinew
Speaker:and
Speaker:corded
Speaker:muscle,
Speaker:I'm
Speaker:practically
Speaker:a
Speaker:waif –
Speaker:a
Speaker:bit
Speaker:of
Speaker:a 'twink',
Speaker:he
Speaker:says,
Speaker:and
Speaker:he
Speaker:assures
Speaker:me
Speaker:it's
Speaker:not
Speaker:an
Speaker:insult.
Speaker:Once
Speaker:again,
Speaker:I'm
Speaker:slowly
Speaker:coming
Speaker:to
Speaker:believe
Speaker:him.
Me?
I'm
Speaker:an
Speaker:Indian
Speaker:wolf,
Speaker:built
Speaker:to
Speaker:cope
Speaker:with
Speaker:the
Speaker:burning
Speaker:heat
Speaker:of
Speaker:the
Speaker:Asian
Speaker:subcontinent,
Speaker:not
Speaker:outright
Speaker:power.
Speaker:My
Speaker:frame
Speaker:is
Speaker:thin,
Speaker:almost
Speaker:dainty,
Speaker:and
Speaker:my
Speaker:fur
Speaker:is
Speaker:reddish-white
Speaker:with
Speaker:black
Speaker:tips.
Speaker:There's
Speaker:a
Speaker:dark
Speaker:V-shaped
Speaker:stripe
Speaker:over
Speaker:my
Speaker:shoulders –
Speaker:Peter
Speaker:loves
Speaker:to
Speaker:trace
Speaker:it
Speaker:with
Speaker:his claws –
Speaker:and
Speaker:my
Speaker:belly's
Speaker:covered
Speaker:with
Speaker:little
Speaker:more
Speaker:than
Speaker:white
Speaker:down.
Peter
strokes
Speaker:me
Speaker:there
Speaker:now
Speaker:with
Speaker:gentle
Speaker:fingerpads.
Speaker:The
Speaker:softness
Speaker:of
Speaker:his
Speaker:touch,
Speaker:the
Speaker:kindness
Speaker:in
Speaker:his
Speaker:voice –
Speaker:I'm
Speaker:starting
Speaker:to
Speaker:think
Speaker:this
Speaker:hulking
Speaker:Army
Speaker:engineer
Speaker:really
Speaker:might
Speaker:have
Speaker:fallen
Speaker:for
Speaker:me
Speaker:just
Speaker:as
Speaker:hard
Speaker:as
Speaker:I
Speaker:for
Speaker:him.
In
my
Speaker:culture,
Speaker:being
Speaker:gay
Speaker:is
Speaker:a
Speaker:great
Speaker:taboo.
Speaker:Being
Speaker:openly
Speaker:gay
Speaker:will
Speaker:very
Speaker:possibly
Speaker:get
Speaker:you
Speaker:killed.
Speaker:In
Speaker:the
Speaker:British
Speaker:Army,
Speaker:the
Speaker:official
Speaker:line
Speaker:is
Speaker:to
Speaker:clap
Speaker:you
Speaker:on
Speaker:the
Speaker:back
Speaker:and
Speaker:say "Go
Speaker:for
Speaker:it!"
I'm
an
Speaker:incredibly
Speaker:lucky
Speaker:wolf.
So
yes,
Speaker:Peter's
Speaker:unit, his
Speaker:Captain
Speaker:included,
Speaker:knows
Speaker:all
Speaker:about
Speaker:the
Speaker:relationship
Speaker:between
Speaker:their
Speaker:second
Speaker:lieutenant
Speaker:and
Speaker:the
Speaker:Persian-born
Speaker:interpreter
Speaker:that's
Speaker:blooming
Speaker:just
Speaker:as
Speaker:brightly
Speaker:as
Speaker:a
Speaker:hillside
Speaker:full
Speaker:of
Speaker:Sweet
Speaker:Vernal
Speaker:flowers
Speaker:in
Speaker:springtime.
Speaker:Peter's
Speaker:buddies,
Speaker:they're
Speaker:totally
Speaker:fine
Speaker:with
Speaker:us –
Speaker:and
Speaker:yes,
Speaker:I
Speaker:think
Speaker:it
Speaker:helps
Speaker:a
Speaker:lot
Speaker:in
Speaker:this
Speaker:regard
Speaker:that
Speaker:Peter's
Speaker:the
Speaker:fittest
Speaker:and
Speaker:most
Speaker:capable
Speaker:of
Speaker:the
Speaker:lot
Speaker:of 'em.
Speaker:Even
Speaker:so,
Speaker:we
Speaker:try
Speaker:to
Speaker:keep
Speaker:things
Speaker:discrete.
Speaker:Although
Speaker:both
Speaker:of
Speaker:us
Speaker:long
Speaker:for
Speaker:more,
Speaker:this
Speaker:level
Speaker:of
Speaker:intimacy,
Speaker:right
Speaker:here
Speaker:beneath
Speaker:the
Speaker:sparkling
Speaker:firmament,
Speaker:is
Speaker:as
Speaker:far
Speaker:as
Speaker:we've
Speaker:ever
Speaker:gone
Speaker:together.
Peter
raises
Speaker:an
Speaker:arm
Speaker:towards
Speaker:the
Speaker:heavens.
Speaker:I
Speaker:can
Speaker:only
Speaker:make
Speaker:out
Speaker:which
Speaker:way
Speaker:he's
Speaker:pointing
Speaker:by
Speaker:the
Speaker:way
Speaker:he
Speaker:blocks
Speaker:the
Speaker:stars.
"Kashaf.
It
Speaker:means 'tortoise',
Speaker:you
Speaker:say?"
"Bale."
"Huh.
We
Speaker:call
Speaker:it
Speaker:The
Speaker:Harp." He points again.
"Khers-e bozorg –
the
Speaker:Great
Speaker:Bear.
Speaker:We
Speaker:call
Speaker:it
Speaker:the
Speaker:same.
Speaker:And
Speaker:that
Speaker:one,
Speaker:Boötes,
Speaker:you
Speaker:call
Speaker:Bang-konaanda."
Speaker:He
Speaker:wraps
Speaker:his
Speaker:arm
Speaker:around
Speaker:me
Speaker:once
Speaker:again. "I
Speaker:like
Speaker:your
Speaker:name
Speaker:better.
Speaker:It
Speaker:makes
Speaker:me
Speaker:smile."
I
rub
Speaker:my
Speaker:slender
Speaker:muzzle
Speaker:against
Speaker:his
Speaker:much
Speaker:broader
Speaker:one. "I
Speaker:think
Speaker:perhaps you're
Speaker:biased."
He
makes
Speaker:a
Speaker:good-natured
Speaker:grumble
Speaker:in
Speaker:his
Speaker:throat. "Possibly;
Speaker:but
Speaker:I
Speaker:love
Speaker:your
Speaker:names
Speaker:for
Speaker:all
Speaker:the
Speaker:constellations.
Speaker:Tell
Speaker:me
Speaker:the
Speaker:myth
Speaker:of
Speaker:Sirius
Speaker:again?"
That
I
Speaker:can
Speaker:awaken
Speaker:such
Speaker:childlike
Speaker:joy
Speaker:in
Speaker:this
Speaker:burly
Speaker:engineer –
Speaker:he
Speaker:who
Speaker:has
Speaker:the
Speaker:skills
Speaker:and
Speaker:strength
Speaker:to
Speaker:wrangle
Speaker:Challenger
Speaker:tanks and
Speaker:L118
Speaker:howitzers
Speaker:into
Speaker:mechanical
Speaker:compliance –
Speaker:well,
Speaker:it
Speaker:thrills
Speaker:me
Speaker:to
Speaker:my
Speaker:core.
Speaker:It's
Speaker:no
Speaker:hardship
Speaker:for
Speaker:me
Speaker:to
Speaker:indulge
Speaker:him,
Speaker:no,
Speaker:none
Speaker:at
Speaker:all.
"Well...
in
Speaker:the
Speaker:oldest
Speaker:times,
Speaker:Tishtrya –
Speaker:the
Speaker:star that
Speaker:you
Speaker:call
Speaker:Sirius –
Speaker:was
Speaker:the
Speaker:noblest
Speaker:sky-god
Speaker:of
Speaker:them
Speaker:all.
Speaker:Every
Speaker:July,
Speaker:when
Speaker:he
Speaker:rose
Speaker:into
Speaker:the
Speaker:heavens,
Speaker:he
Speaker:did
Speaker:battle
Speaker:with
Speaker:the
Speaker:foul
Speaker:demon
Speaker:Apaosha
Speaker:who
Speaker:sought
Speaker:only
Speaker:to
Speaker:bring
Speaker:drought
Speaker:and
Speaker:starvation
Speaker:everywhere
Speaker:he
Speaker:went.
Speaker:The
Speaker:demon
Speaker:would
Speaker:first
Speaker:send
Speaker:his
Speaker:minions,
Speaker:the
Speaker:dreaded
Speaker:witch-fiends
Speaker:Pairikaas –"
"We call 'em the
Leonid
Speaker:meteors!"
"Yes,
but
Speaker:don't
Speaker:interrupt!
Speaker:So
Speaker:then
Speaker:Tishtrya
Speaker:called
Speaker:then
Speaker:upon
Speaker:his
Speaker:ally
Speaker:Haptoiringa –
Speaker:that's
Speaker:the
Speaker:ancient
Speaker:name
Speaker:for
Speaker:The
Speaker:Great
Speaker:Bear –
Speaker:and also Satavaesa, or Antares, and the
Speaker:gods
Speaker:made
Speaker:battle
Speaker:in
Speaker:the
Speaker:sky.
Speaker:And
Speaker:when
Speaker:the
Speaker:rains
Speaker:at
Speaker:last
Speaker:came
Speaker:once
Speaker:more
Speaker:to
Speaker:the
Speaker:pastures
Speaker:and
Speaker:parched
Speaker:fields,
Speaker:the
Speaker:people
Speaker:knew
Speaker:that
Speaker:Apaosha
Speaker:had
Speaker:been
Speaker:vanquished
Speaker:for
Speaker:another
Speaker:year."
And
all
Speaker:of
Speaker:the
Speaker:time
Speaker:I'm
Speaker:telling
Speaker:the
Speaker:story
Speaker:to
Speaker:my
Speaker:love,
Speaker:I'm
Speaker:thinking,
Speaker:I'm
thinking:thinking:
how
thinking:can
thinking:anyone
thinking:bear
thinking:to
thinking:be
thinking:as
thinking:happy
thinking:as
thinking:I
thinking:am, right now?
*****
RAF Lossiemouth, Scotland
28 February, 2022
The deal was
this:
work
this:as
this:an
this:interpreter
this:for
this:the
this:British
this:Army
this:and,
this:when
this:your
this:tour
this:was
this:finished,
this:you
this:could
this:opt
this:for
this:resettlement
this:in
this:the
this:UK
this:along
this:with
this:your
this:close
this:family.
this:So
this:when
this:I
this:was
this:done
this:with Kalaqistan –
this:or
this:rather, when Kalaqistan was
this:done
this:with
this:me –
this:I
this:found
this:myself
this:spat
this:out
this:on
this:the
this:shores
this:of
this:the
this:Moray
this:coast
this:in
this:a
this:small,
this:drab
this:chalet
this:provided
this:rent-free
this:for
this:a
this:year,
this:part
this:of
this:the
this:accommodation
this:for
this:military
this:families
this:at
this:the
this:RAF
this:base
this:nearby.
this:I
this:was
this:twenty-three
this:years
this:old.
My
young
this:wife,
this:Taara –
this:she
this:hated
this:Lossiemouth.
this:Hated not knowing
this:anyone
this:among
this:the
this:eight-thousand-odd
this:souls
this:who
this:dwelt
this:there,
this:hated
this:that
this:pomegranates
this:were
this:nigh-on
this:unobtainable,
this:that
this:she
this:couldn't
this:afford
this:saffron
this:to
this:make
this:tachin
this:dami.
this:The
this:local
this:butcher
this:couldn't
this:even
this:supply
this:her
this:with the
this:fresh
this:goat-meat
this:that
this:she
this:needed
this:to
this:make
this:proper
this:kebabs.
She
hated
this:having
this:nothing
this:much
this:to
this:do.
this:And
this:so,
this:one
this:Sunday
this:morning
this:with
this:a
this:chill
this:mist
this:rolling
this:in
this:off
this:a
this:particularly
this:bleak
this:North
this:Sea,
this:we
this:had
this:the
this:conversation
this:I'd
this:seen
this:looming
this:while
this:it
this:was
this:still
this:several
this:weeks
this:away.
"Pazir...?"
"Hmm?"
"Pazir,
I – "
this:She
this:drew a
this:deeper
this:breath,
this:set
this:her
this:shoulders. "I
this:want
this:out."
And
there
this:it
this:was.
this:Her
this:body
this:was
this:tight
this:but
this:resolute.
this:I
this:had
this:to
this:admire
this:her
courage:courage:
in
courage:our
courage:homeland,
courage:the
courage:husband
courage:can
courage:divorce
courage:the
courage:wife,
courage:never
courage:the
courage:other
courage:way
courage:around.
But
we
courage:weren't
courage:in
courage:our
courage:homeland
courage:any more.
courage:And
courage:now
courage:my
courage:marriage-of-convenience
courage:wife
courage:had
courage:finally
courage:decided
courage:that
courage:the
courage:cost-benefit
courage:analysis
courage:of
courage:our
courage:union
courage:had
courage:shifted
courage:decisively
courage:for
courage:the
courage:worse.
"It
isn't
courage:fair,
courage:Pazir.
courage:Not
courage:fair
courage:on
courage:you,
courage:not
courage:fair
courage:on
courage:me."
courage:She heaved out a weary sigh. "I love you, Pazir,
courage:and
courage:I
courage:know
courage:how
courage:hard
courage:it's
courage:been
courage:for
courage:you,
courage:after
courage:Peter.
courage:But
courage:I
courage:want –
courage:I
courage:need –
courage:more
courage:than
courage:this."
She
didn't
courage:have
courage:to
courage:spell
courage:it
courage:out.
courage:She
courage:wanted
courage:more
courage:for
courage:her
courage:life
courage:than
courage:Lossiemouth
courage:or
courage:I
courage:could
courage:ever
courage:give.
courage:She
courage:missed
courage:her
courage:cooking,
courage:yes,
courage:but
courage:also
courage:the
courage:companionship
courage:of
courage:her
courage:female
courage:peers;
courage:and
courage:most
courage:of
courage:all,
courage:she
courage:longed
courage:for
courage:the
courage:attentions
courage:of
courage:a
courage:male
courage:who
courage:could
courage:love
courage:her
courage:fully
courage:as the beautiful young she-wolf
courage:that
courage:she
courage:truly
courage:was,
courage:give
courage:her
courage:the
courage:cubs
courage:she
courage:so
courage:desperately
courage:desired.
I
had
courage:no
courage:doubts
courage:that
courage:she
courage:would
courage:find
courage:him.
courage:In
courage:a
courage:country
courage:where
courage:greys
courage:predominated
courage:she
courage:certainly
courage:stood
out:out:
a lithe
out:Arabian
out:female
out:in
out:her
out:prime,
out:more
out:dainty
out:in
out:her
out:frame
out:even
out:than
out:myself.
out:Her
out:beige
out:fur,
out:glossy,
out:shone
out:with
out:health;
out:her
out:large
out:and
out:pointed
out:ears
out:flicked
out:to
out:the
out:smallest
out:sound.
out:Romantically
out:speaking,
out:no
out:females
out:have
out:ever
out:caught
out:my
out:eye;
out:however,
out:even
out:by
out:my
out:poor
out:objective
out:standards
out:I
out:knew
out:that
out:Taara
out:was
out:absolutely
out:gorgeous.
Her
arms
out:went
out:round
out:me
out:one
out:last
out:time as
out:she
out:mouthed
out:her
out:sad,
out:soft
out:words
out:into
out:my
out:ear.
"You'll
find
out:the
out:one
out:who’s
out:right
out:for
out:you,
out:Pazir.
out:And
out:he's
out:going
out:to
out:think
out:himself
out:the
out:luckiest
out:wolf
out:in
out:all
out:the
out:world."
I
could
out:not
out:share
out:her
out:confidence.
out:After
out:all,
out:I
out:was
out:nothing
out:but
out:a
out:broken
out:Indian
out:wolf
out:who
out:got
out:so
out:little
out:sleep
out:at
out:night
out:he
out:couldn't
out:hold
out:down
out:any
out:sort
out:of
out:job
out:at
out:all.
out:I
out:thought
out:back
out:to
out:the
out:latest
out:time
out:I'd
out:been
out:fired,
out:just
out:the
out:week
before:before:
I'd
before:nodded
before:off
before:while
before:on
before:the
before:supermarket
before:checkout,
before:and
before:it
before:had
before:been
before:one
before:time too
before:many
before:for
before:my
before:supervisor.
Anything
that
before:I
before:might
before:have
before:said
before:to
before:Taara
before:at
before:that
before:point
before:would
before:have
before:sounded
before:trite
before:or
before:self-pitying.
before:And
before:so,
before:other
before:than
before:smiling,
before:I
before:didn’t
before:make
before:any
before:reply
before:to her at all.
*****
RAF Lossiemouth, Scotland
4 July, 2023
7:04 am
My pelt beads dewdrops
from
before:the
before:early
before:morning
before:haar,
before:and
before:the
before:clean
before:wet
before:sand
before:of
before:the
before:strandline
before:is
before:a
before:balm
before:beneath
before:my
before:skipping
before:paws.
before:The
before:morning
before:is
before:deathly
before:still.
before:The
before:only
before:sounds
before:are
before:the
before:gentle
before:lapping
before:of
before:the
before:waves
before:and
before:the
before:soulful
before:cries
before:of
before:distant
before:gulls.
Running
takes
before:my
before:mind
before:off
before:things –
before:and
before:Lossiemouth,
before:with
before:its
before:lonely
before:broad
before:white
before:beaches
before:beckoning
before:for
before:miles
before:on
before:either
before:side,
before:might
before:have
before:been
before:conjured
before:by
before:a
before:very
before:deity
before:just
before:for
before:the
before:likes
before:of
before:me.
before:Today
before:I'm
before:on
before:a
before:lonely
before:ten-k
before:loop
before:that
before:takes
before:me
before:west
before:along
before:the
before:sand
before:before
before:cutting
before:inland
before:on
before:quiet
before:country
before:roads,
before:back
before:to
before:the
before:sprawling
before:mass
before:of
before:chalets
before:between
before:the
before:airbase
before:and
before:the
before:shore.
I
run
before:alone.
before:I
before:run
before:a
before:lot.
before:The
before:flashbacks
before:seldom
before:hit
before:me,
before:once
before:I
before:get
before:into
before:my
before:stride.
Unfortunately, 'seldom'
does
before:not
before:mean 'never'.
*****
After
the
before:deadly
before:debacle
before:of
before:the
before:Snatch
before:Landrovers
before:in
before:the
before:early
before:years,
before:Britain
before:started
before:sending
before:proper
before:armoured
before:trucks
before:to
before:its
before:fighting wolves
before:in Kalaqistan.
The
insurgents'
before:response
before:was
before:simple.
before:They
before:just
before:stuffed
before:more
before:explosives
before:into
before:their
before:roadside
before:pipe-bombs.
The
pipe-bomb
before:is
before:hidden
before:in
before:a
before:culvert.
before:One
before:moment
before:we're
before:trundling
before:in
before:a
before:dusty
before:threesome
before:down
before:a
before:dirt
before:road
before:that
before:looks
before:like
before:it's
before:been
before:unspooled
before:over
before:every
before:little
before:hump
before:and
before:contour
before:of
before:the
before:land,
before:and
before:the
before:next –
The
eight solid tonnes
before:of
before:the
before:lead
before:truck
before:explodes
before:skywards
before:in
before:horrifying
before:slow-mo,
before:tumbling
before:end
before:on
before:end
before:like
before:some
before:errant
before:childhood
before:toy.
before:It
before:crashes
before:back
before:to
before:earth
before:in a
before:plume
before:of
before:dust
before:and
before:diesel
before:smoke.
before:The
before:harsh
before:staccato
before:chatter
before:of
before:AKs
before:and
before:the
before:deeper 'crump,
before:crump'
before:of
before:mortars
before:starts
before:up
before:all
before:around.
"PETER!"
I'm
in
before:the
before:second
before:truck,
before:now
before:slewed
before:to
before:a
before:dead
before:stop.
before:Burly
before:grey
before:wolves
before:tumble
before:from
before:its
before:rear,
before:taking
before:defensive
before:positions
before:as
before:bullets
before:ping
before:from
before:armour.
before:I
before:skitter
before:to
before:the
before:fallen
before:truck,
before:dust-clouds
before:of
before:near
before:misses
before:flying
before:all
before:around
before:me
before:like
before:so
before:many
before:madcap
before:dervishes.
Twisted
steel
before:and
before:weapons
before:torn
before:asunder.
before:Body
before:parts
before:and
before:mangled
before:flesh.
before:A
before:mortar
before:shell
before:detonates
before:five
before:metres
before:from
before:me,
before:but
before:I'm
before:sheltered
before:from
before:the
before:worst
before:by
before:the
before:wreckage
before:of
before:the
before:truck.
before:For
before:a
before:moment,
before:all
before:I
before:can
before:hear
before:is
before:the
before:pounding
before:of
before:my
before:own
before:heart
before:and
before:the
before:ringing
before:in
before:my
before:ears.
"Peter..."
He's
propped
before:against
before:a
before:blown-out
before:tyre,
before:grasping
before:on to
before:his
before:heavy
before:rifle
before:as
before:if
before:to
before:find
before:some
before:last
before:grim
before:hope
before:in
before:that
before:familiar
before:hold.
before:The
before:ferric stink
before:of
before:so
before:much
before:blood
before:is
before:almost
before:overwhelming.
"Pazir..."
His
voice
before:is
before:but
before:a
before:clogging
before:whisper.
before:His
before:gorgeous
before:amber
before:eyes
before:roll
slowly
up
before:to
before:me,
before:and
before:as
before:I
before:cling
before:to
before:him,
before:screaming
before:wildly
before:for
before:a
before:medic,
before:the
before:smile
before:that
before:ghosts
before:his
before:muzzle
before:is
before:so
before:precious
before:and
before:so
before:very
before:far
before:away.
"Know that
I
before:love
before:you,
before:Paz –"
WHAM.
"Oh
my
before:gods,
before:are
before:you
before:alright?!"
The
tarmac
before:of
before:the
before:pavement
before:is
before:cool
before:and
before:wet
before:against
before:my
before:back.
before:The
before:heavy
before:clouds
before:above,
before:rain-gravid,
before:are
before:blocked
before:by
before:a
before:wolfish
before:silhouette
before:that's
before:looming
before:close.
My
breathing
before:comes
before:in
before:short
before:and
before:painful
before:bursts.
before:I
before:cannot
before:speak.
before:I
before:feel
before:strong
before:arms
before:around
before:me,
before:and
before:I'm
before:hoisted,
before:without
before:apparent
before:effort,
before:into
before:the
before:hold
before:of
before:a
before:big
before:brute
before:of
before:black-morph
before:wolf.
before:Muzzle agape,
before:he
before:stares
before:down
before:at
before:me
before:with
before:shining
before:orange
before:eyes,
before:unblinking,
before:wide.
"I
didn't
before:see
before:you
before:coming!
before:I
before:was
before:reversing
before:out,
before:and
before:then
before:you
before:were
before:right
before:there,
before:and
before:you
before:ran
before:into
before:the
before:truck..."
He
shifts
before:his
before:grip,
before:hoists
before:me
before:confidently
before:beneath
before:my
before:haunch
before:with
before:the
before:vast
before:paw
before:of
before:one
before:arm
before:while
before:he
before:gropes
before:in
before:the
before:pockets
before:of
before:his
before:khaki
before:fatigues
before:with
before:the
before:other. Ay
before:bah bah, but
before:he is
before:strong!
before:He
before:extricates
before:a
before:set
before:of
before:keys.
"No,
no,"
before:I
before:gasp,
before:but
before:weakly. "I'm
before:just
before:winded...
before:maybe – "
"You're
winded,
before:friend,
before:and
before:your
before:head
before:is
before:bleeding."
before:His
before:voice,
before:a firm
before:baritone,
before:will
before:not
before:brook
before:any
before:denial. "You're
before:coming
before:inside
before:with
before:me, 'till
before:I
before:figure
before:out
before:if
before:I
before:need
before:to
before:run
before:you
before:to
before:the
before:hospital."
I'm
conscious,
before:vaguely,
before:of
before:a
before:key
before:turning,
before:of
before:a
before:broad
before:black
before:shoulder
before:muscling
before:the
before:front
before:door
before:wide.
before:I
before:find
before:myself
before:laid
before:full
before:length,
before:gently,
before:on
before:a
before:vast
before:sofa
before:that's
before:probably
before:large
before:enough
before:for
before:five
before:of
before:me,
before:and
before:I
before:find
before:my
before:breathing
before:start
before:to
before:come
before:a
before:little
before:easier.
"Be
right
before:back."
He
stomps
before:away.
before:Distractedly,
before:I
before:notice
before:that
before:he
before:favours
before:his
before:left
before:leg.
I
glance
before:around,
before:and
before:gasp.
A
gorgeous
before:photo,
before:framed,
before:of
before:the
before:Crab
before:Nebula.
before:Nearby,
before:another
image:image:
The Pleiades.
image:A
image:third
image:shows
image:the
image:hunter
image:Orion,
image:his
image:primary
image:stars
ablaze:ablaze:
Rigel,
ablaze:Betelgeuse...
My
eyes
ablaze:slide
ablaze:across
ablaze:to
ablaze:a
ablaze:fourth photo.
ablaze:It's
ablaze:of wolves this
ablaze:time,
ablaze:and
ablaze:there's
ablaze:my
ablaze:rescuer
ablaze:in
ablaze:full
ablaze:camo
ablaze:getup,
ablaze:grinning
ablaze:wide
ablaze:to
ablaze:flash
ablaze:his
ablaze:fangs
ablaze:at
ablaze:the
ablaze:camera
ablaze:with
ablaze:half
ablaze:a
ablaze:dozen
ablaze:of
ablaze:his
ablaze:buddies. The
ablaze:insignia
ablaze:sown
ablaze:to
ablaze:each
ablaze:lapel
ablaze:is
ablaze:as
ablaze:plain
ablaze:as
day:day:
a
day:dagger
day:pointing
day:down,
day:wings
day:rising
day:up
day:to
day:either
day:side.
day:My
day:breathing
day:hitches
day:once
day:again.
"Here
ya
day:go.
day:I
day:took
day:a
day:guess
day:with
day:the
day:tea,
day:black
day:with
day:sugar;
day:hope
day:that's
day:OK.
day:Had
day:an
day:Indian
day:wolf
day:buddy
day:back
day:in
day:the
day:day,
day:and
day:he'd
day:never
day:take
day:his
day:tea
day:any
day:other
day:way.
day:Oh,
day:I'm
day:Gareth,
day:by
day:the way."
"Paz – Pazir. And
black with
day:sugar
day:is
day:fine.
day:Thank
day:you."
His
ears
day:come
day:up,
day:and
day:he
day:favours
day:me with
day:a
day:soft
day:smile. "Then enjoy your tea, Pazir, while I take a look
day:at
day:that
day:wound
day:of
day:yours."
My
impromptu
day:host
day:knows
day:exactly
day:what
day:he's
day:doing.
day:I
day:feel
day:the
day:sting
day:of
day:alcohol
day:across
day:my
day:scalp,
day:but
day:the
day:fingerpads
day:doing
day:the
day:touching
day:are
day:impossibly
day:gentle.
day:The
day:softness
day:of
day:his
day:touch,
day:the
day:kindness
day:in
day:his
day:voice –
day:I'm
day:starting
day:to
day:think
day:this
day:hulking
day:Army
day:engineer
day:really
day:might
day:have
day:fallen
day:for
day:me...
The
orange
day:of
day:the
day:big
day:wolf's
day:eyes
day:seems
day:to
day:shift
day:and
day:morph,
day:lightening,
day:transforming,
day:and
day:when
day:I
day:blink,
day:it's
day:amber
day:eyes
day:that
day:I
day:find
day:shining
day:back
day:at
day:me.
day:They
day:won't
day:quite
day:come
day:into
day:focus.
day:I
day:blink
day:again,
day:and
day:shake
day:my
day:head.
day:The
day:amber
day:shimmers.
~
He's
day:a
day:good 'un,
day:love ~
Wait,
what?
day:I
day:feel
day:my
day:ears
day:flick,
day:one
day:and then
day:the
day:other.
day:P – Peter??
~
Hah! ~
I
catch
day:the
day:distinctive
day:click-clack
day:of
day:an L129A1 rifle being
day:made
day:safe. ~
day:I
day:will
day:always
day:be
day:here
day:for
day:you,
day:my
day:love, for
day:as
day:long
day:as
day:Tishtrya
day:still
day:shines
day:up
day:in
day:the
day:sky.
day:But
day:as
day:for
day:right
day:now,
day:it's
day:time
day:for
day:you
day:to
day:let
day:me
day:go ~
I
feel
day:my breath
day:clog inside
day:my
day:throat,
day:the
day:sudden,
day:stinging
day:rush
day:of
day:tears.
day:I
day:blink
day:for
day:the
day:third
day:time
day:in
day:as
day:many
day:seconds,
day:and
day:when
day:the
day:room
day:finally
day:swims
day:back
day:into
day:some
day:vague
day:sharpness,
day:I
day:find
day:myself
day:staring
day:again
day:at
day:the
day:framed
day:photo
day:of
day:my
day:rescuer.
The
photo
day:that
day:is
day:right
day:there
day:in
day:plain
day:sight;
day:the
day:black
day:wolf
day:doesn't
day:seem
day:to
day:care
day:who
day:sees
day:it.
day:I
day:take
day:a
day:few
day:deep
day:breaths
day:before
day:I
day:trust
day:myself
day:to
day:speak.
"You...
you're SAS.
day:Special Air
day:Service."
He
harrumphs
day:back
day:at
day:me.
day:Orange
day:eyes.
day:Definitely,
day:orange
day:eyes. "Hah.
day:Was.
day:I
day:was
day:medic
day:to
day:my
day:platoon,
day:but
day:then
day:my
day:main 'chute
day:failed
day:on
day:a
day:training
day:jump,
day:and
day:the
day:reserve
day:kinda
day:did
day:its
day:thing
day:but
day:not
day:really,
day:and
day:so,
day:well..."
day:He
day:pats
day:his
day:leg. "Compound
day:fracture,
day:a
day:nasty
day:one.
day:So,
day:I
day:retrained.
day:These
day:days
day:I
day:handle
day:a
day:little
day:bit
day:of
day:basic
day:training
day:for
day:the
day:new
day:recruits,
day:but
day:mainly
day:I
day:do
day:air
day:traffic
day:control
day:for
day:the
day:fighter
day:group
day:that's stationed
day:here."
"Makes
sense,"
day:I wheeze
day:back
day:at
day:him,
day:processing
day:his
day:words
day:and
day:glancing
day:once
day:again
day:at
day:the
day:star-portraits. "You
day:love
day:the
day:sky.
day:And
day:everything
day:that's
day:in
day:it."
Those
orange
day:eyes
day:go
day:wide,
day:unfocussed,
day:before
day:sharpening
day:once
day:again. "Bleeding's stopped,"
day:he
day:says
day:then,
day:curt
day:but
day:not
day:unkindly.
day:He
day:holds
day:up
day:a
day:paw,
day:fingers
day:splayed. "How
day:many?"
He's
actually
day:adorable.
day:I
day:pretend
day:to
day:squint,
day:but
day:I
day:feel
day:my
day:ears
day:go
day:tall,
day:my
day:tail
day:thump
day:against
day:the
day:cushions
day:of
day:the
day:sofa.
day:This
day:close,
day:I
day:notice
day:a
day:smudge
day:or
day:two
day:of
day:white
day:hairs
day:ghosting
day:his
day:dark
day:muzzle. "Um,
day:two?
day:Or
day:maybe...
day:four?
day:Might
day:need
day:to
day:take
day:a
day:closer
day:look."
And
he
day:doesn't
day:move
day:a
day:muscle
day:as
day:I
day:lean
day:in
day:close,
day:real
day:close,
day:until
day:the
day:scent
day:of
day:him
day:fills
day:me
day:with
day:a
day:glorious
day:wild
day:certainty.
*****
RAF Lossiemouth, Scotland
10 July, 2023
9:36 pm
"Scope's set up
out
day:back.
day:I'll
day:give
day:you
day:a
day:run-through,
day:once
day:it's
day:properly
day:dark."
"Fourteen-inch
reflector.
day:A
day:Questar,
day:no
day:less,
day:on
day:a
day:tripod
day:that
day:I
day:cannot
day:lift
day:and
day:with
day:a
day:camera
day:worth
day:more
day:than
day:the
day:GDP
day:of
day:some
day:small
day:countries."
"You
exaggerate."
"And
you
day:love
day:it."
I
lean
day:back
day:into
day:him,
day:my
day:shoulderblades
day:digging
day:into
day:his
day:pecs.
day:He
day:dips
day:his
day:muzzle
day:to
day:my
day:shoulder,
day:and
day:his
day:broad
day:black
day:paws
day:clasp
day:me
day:tightly
day:to
day:him
day:from
day:behind. "You're
day:not
day:picking
day:up
day:on
day:the
day:whole 'it's
day:not
day:quite
day:dark'
day:thing
day:yet."
I
squirm
day:around
day:to
day:face
day:him. "I
day:heard
day:you.
day:But
day:I'm
day:afraid I'm
day:not
day:terribly...
day:experienced.
day:With
day:guys.
day:With
day:anyone,
day:in
day:fact."
I
feel
day:my
day:ears
day:flush
day:with
day:warmth.
day:Will he
day:scoff,
day:think
day:less
day:of
day:me
day:for
day:my
day:admission?
Not
for
day:a
day:moment. "Oh,"
day:he
day:rumbles
day:back, "that's
day:quite
day:all right.
day:Just
day:means
day:you've
day:still
day:got
day:the
day:pleasure
day:of
day:finding
day:all
day:that
day:out.
day:All
day:of
day:the
day:amazing
day:things
day:that
day:guys
day:can
day:do
day:with
day:one
day:another."
day:He
day:brings
day:one
day:of
day:those
day:huge
day:paws
day:to
day:my
day:muzzle
day:with
day:a
day:touch
day:that's
day:light
day:as
day:gossamer,
day:and
day:he
day:dips
day:his
day:head
day:to
day:kiss
day:me.
day:Our
day:tails,
day:they
day:are
day:both
day:wagging. "If
day:you
day:would
day:permit
day:me,
day:I'd
day:like
day:to
day:show
day:you."
"Mmm.
Sounds
day:delicious."
day:I
day:touch
day:my
day:tongue
day:to
day:his,
day:and
day:feel
day:his
day:body
day:tremble.
day:This
day:wolf,
day:this
day:wolf... "Still,
day:I'd
day:hate
day:to
day:take
day:you
day:for
day:granted.
day:I
day:like
day:to
day:earn
day:my
day:keep."
He
cocks
day:his
day:burly
day:head. "Huh?"
"Let
me
day:earn
day:my
day:first
day:lesson
day:with
day:a
day:story."
I
prise
day:myself
day:away
day:from
day:him.
day:He
day:could
day:stop
day:me
day:very
day:easily –
day:ajab!,
day:he
day:could
day:probably
day:crush
day:my
day:torso
day:in
day:a
day:heartbeat! –
day:but
day:instead
day:he
day:just
day:frowns
day:at
day:me
day:in
day:puzzlement.
His
lovely
day:photograph
day:of
day:Orion
day:is
day:hanging
day:there
day:nearby.
"Mintaka",
I say then, pointing. "Alnilam, Alnitak. The three
day:of
day:them,
day:pointing
day:down
day:to – "
"Tishtrya."
I
feel
day:my
day:ears
day:fall
day:flat. "You
day:know,
day:the
day:storyteller
day:has
day:less
day:fun
day:if
day:the
day:listener
day:already
day:knows
day:the
day:story."
"But
what
day:if
day:the
day:listener
day:really,
day:really
day:wants
day:to
day:hear
day:his
day:boyfriend
day:tell it?"
Scotland,
it
day:has
day:no
day:need
day:of
day:Sirius
day:to
day:bring
day:the
day:rain.
day:But
day:I
day:can't
day:deny
day:this
day:wolf.
"Oh,
well
day:then."
day:My
day:ears
day:perk
day:up
day:again. "In
day:the
day:oldest
day:times,
day:Tishtrya –
day:the
day:star
day:that
day:you
day:call
day:Sirius –
day:was
day:the
day:noblest
day:sky-god
day:of
day:them
day:all…"
This
was “All
day:Of
day:The
day:Stars
day:In
day:The
day:Sky”
day:by
day:Anhedral,
day:read
day:for you by
day:BandanaDog, Unorthodox
day:Spacetime
day:Drifter.
day:You
day:can
day:find
day:more
day:stories
day:on
day:the
day:web
day:at thevoice.dog, or find the show
day:wherever you
day:get
day:your
day:podcasts.
day:Happy
day:Pride,
day:and
day:Thank
day:you
day:for
day:listening
day:to
day:The
day:Voice
day:of
day:Dog.