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“Abstinence” by Anhedral

A civil servant in a dead-end job has an exciting second life of wings and scales. Can he keep both? And will his wife ever understand?

Today’s story is “Abstinence” by Anhedral. Most of his stories, including this one, can be found at furaffinity.net/user/anhedral/

Read for you by Khaki, your faithful fireside companion.

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