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[18+] “Votive” by Packwolf Lupestripe (read by Ta'kom)
[18+] On the anniversary of his girlfriend’s death, a young man goes to pay his respects and is seduced by her spirit in equine form…
Tonight’s story is “Votive” by Packwolf Lupestripe. This is an exclusive tale for this year’s Ghost of Dog, but you can find more of her stories on SoFurry and check out her website for details of her published work.
Read by Ta’kom Ironhoof, the Equine Charmer.
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Transcript
The
Speaker:Ghost of
Speaker:Dog
Speaker:on
Speaker:Voice
Speaker:of
Speaker:Dog. This
Speaker:is
Speaker:Rob
Speaker:MacWolf,
Speaker:your
Speaker:fellow
Speaker:traveler,
Speaker:and Tonight’s
Speaker:story
Speaker:is “Votive” by Packwolf Lupestripe. This is
Speaker:an
Speaker:exclusive
Speaker:tale
Speaker:for
Speaker:this
Speaker:year’s
Speaker:Ghost
Speaker:of
Speaker:Dog,
Speaker:but
Speaker:you
Speaker:can
Speaker:find
Speaker:more
Speaker:of
Speaker:her
Speaker:stories
Speaker:on
Speaker:SoFurry
Speaker:and
Speaker:check
Speaker:out
Speaker:her
Speaker:website
Speaker:for
Speaker:details
Speaker:of
Speaker:her
Speaker:published
Speaker:work.
Read 
by
Speaker:Ta’kom
Speaker:Ironhoof,
Speaker:the
Speaker:Equine Charmer.
Entry 
E210,
Speaker:in
Speaker:the
Speaker:Thompson
Speaker:Motif-Index
Speaker:of
Speaker:Folk
Speaker:Tales,
Speaker:Dead
Speaker:Lover’s
Speaker:Malevolent
Speaker:Return.
Speaker:In
Speaker:particular
Speaker:the
Speaker:subtype
Speaker:E215,
Speaker:the
Speaker:Dead Rider, in
Speaker:which
Speaker:the
Speaker:deceased
Speaker:haunts
Speaker:and
Speaker:abducts
Speaker:their
Speaker:bereaved
Speaker:on
Speaker:horseback.
Speaker:The
Speaker:index
Speaker:notes
Speaker:this
Speaker:experience
Speaker:is,
Speaker:quote, “usually
Speaker:fatal.”
Speaker:Other
Speaker:motifs,
Speaker:as
Speaker:well,
Speaker:may
Speaker:apply,
Speaker:to-
“Votive” by Packwolf Lupestripe
I wrap my coat tighter around 
my
Speaker:body
Speaker:in
Speaker:a
Speaker:desperate
Speaker:attempt
Speaker:to
Speaker:shield
Speaker:me
Speaker:from
Speaker:the
Speaker:wind.
Speaker:My
Speaker:teeth
Speaker:chatter
Speaker:as
Speaker:I
Speaker:make
Speaker:my
Speaker:way
Speaker:up
Speaker:the
Speaker:path,
Speaker:kicking
Speaker:the
Speaker:sodden
Speaker:leaves
Speaker:in
Speaker:my
Speaker:wake.
Speaker:I
Speaker:push
Speaker:through
Speaker:the
Speaker:thick
Speaker:blanket
Speaker:of
Speaker:drizzle
Speaker:that
Speaker:clings
Speaker:to
Speaker:the
Speaker:air,
Speaker:cursing
Speaker:that
Speaker:it
Speaker:seems
Speaker:more
Speaker:intent
Speaker:on
Speaker:clinging
Speaker:on to
Speaker:me.
I 
sigh.
Speaker:Why
Speaker:did
Speaker:she
Speaker:have
Speaker:to
Speaker:die
Speaker:in
Speaker:October?
The 
graves in
Speaker:the
Speaker:churchyard
Speaker:leer
Speaker:back,
Speaker:like
Speaker:the
Speaker:jagged
Speaker:teeth
Speaker:of
Speaker:a
Speaker:monster
Speaker:threatening
Speaker:to
Speaker:devour
Speaker:me.
Speaker:I’ll
Speaker:walk
Speaker:to
Speaker:hers
Speaker:later
Speaker:and
Speaker:lay
Speaker:this
Speaker:horse
Speaker:plush
Speaker:upon
Speaker:it.
Speaker:She
Speaker:always
Speaker:enjoyed
Speaker:riding.
Speaker:It
Speaker:seemed
Speaker:more
Speaker:fitting
Speaker:than
Speaker:lilies.
I 
blink
Speaker:into
Speaker:the
Speaker:mist
Speaker:and
Speaker:wonder
Speaker:how
Speaker:I
Speaker:got
Speaker:here.
Speaker:Mid-twenties
Speaker:and
Speaker:alone,
Speaker:a
Speaker:spectre
Speaker:of
Speaker:what
Speaker:I
Speaker:once
Speaker:was.
Speaker:It’s
Speaker:hard
Speaker:to
Speaker:believe
Speaker:it’s
Speaker:already
Speaker:been
Speaker:a
Speaker:year.
Speaker:Time
Speaker:has
Speaker:a
Speaker:habit
Speaker:of
Speaker:passing
Speaker:too
Speaker:quickly
Speaker:and
Speaker:too
Speaker:slowly.
I 
look
Speaker:up
Speaker:to
Speaker:see
Speaker:a
Speaker:black
Speaker:portal
Speaker:in
Speaker:front
Speaker:of
Speaker:me,
Speaker:framed
Speaker:by
Speaker:dilapidated
Speaker:masonry
Speaker:and
Speaker:moss-covered
Speaker:stone.
Speaker:I’m
Speaker:sure
Speaker:back
Speaker:in
Speaker:the
Speaker:day,
Speaker:this
Speaker:place
Speaker:would
Speaker:have
Speaker:offered
Speaker:salvation
Speaker:to
Speaker:the
Speaker:pious,
Speaker:but
Speaker:we’re
Speaker:all
Speaker:sinners
Speaker:nowadays
Speaker:with
Speaker:our
Speaker:myriad
Speaker:distractions.
I 
look
Speaker:at
Speaker:the
Speaker:tumbledown
Speaker:walls
Speaker:and
Speaker:wonder
Speaker:how
Speaker:the
Speaker:church
Speaker:is
Speaker:still
Speaker:functional.
Speaker:The
Speaker:congregation
Speaker:must
Speaker:equal
Speaker:single
Speaker:figures
Speaker:with
Speaker:the
Speaker:average
Speaker:age
Speaker:of
Speaker:ghost.
Speaker:I’d
Speaker:be
Speaker:surprised
Speaker:if
Speaker:some
Speaker:of
Speaker:them
Speaker:hadn’t
Speaker:died
Speaker:in
Speaker:the
Speaker:pews,
Speaker:just
Speaker:more
Speaker:people
Speaker:leaving
Speaker:this
Speaker:post-industrial
Speaker:town.
I 
stop
Speaker:and
Speaker:stare
Speaker:into
Speaker:the
Speaker:darkness,
Speaker:as
Speaker:if
Speaker:examining
Speaker:my
Speaker:own
Speaker:soul
Speaker:and
Speaker:interrogating
Speaker:my
Speaker:life.
Speaker:I
Speaker:sigh
Speaker:once
Speaker:again.
Speaker:The
Speaker:least
Speaker:I
Speaker:can
Speaker:do
Speaker:is
Speaker:light
Speaker:a
Speaker:candle
Speaker:in
Speaker:her
Speaker:memory.
Speaker:Orphaned
Speaker:at
Speaker:birth,
Speaker:she
Speaker:had
Speaker:no-one
Speaker:else.
But 
the
Speaker:truth
Speaker:is
Speaker:that
Speaker:now,
Speaker:neither
Speaker:do
Speaker:I.
“Hello,” 
I
Speaker:shout
Speaker:as
Speaker:I
Speaker:cross
Speaker:into
Speaker:the
Speaker:inky
Speaker:black,
Speaker:squinting
Speaker:from
Speaker:the
Speaker:contrast
Speaker:in
Speaker:light
Speaker:from
Speaker:the
Speaker:full
Speaker:moon
Speaker:outside. “Is
Speaker:anyone
Speaker:there?”
Silence. 
I
Speaker:don’t
Speaker:know
Speaker:whether
Speaker:that’s
Speaker:a
Speaker:good
Speaker:thing
Speaker:or
Speaker:not,
Speaker:but
Speaker:my
Speaker:heart
Speaker:skips
Speaker:a
Speaker:beat
Speaker:and
Speaker:my
Speaker:knees
Speaker:start
Speaker:to
Speaker:shake.
I 
breathe
Speaker:heavily
Speaker:as
Speaker:I
Speaker:become
Speaker:accustomed
Speaker:to
Speaker:the
Speaker:gloom.
Speaker:On
Speaker:the
Speaker:far
Speaker:side,
Speaker:there’s
Speaker:an
Speaker:altar
Speaker:with
Speaker:a
Speaker:dimly
Speaker:framed
Speaker:crucifix
Speaker:above
Speaker:it.
Speaker:Six
Speaker:rows
Speaker:of pews
Speaker:separate
Speaker:me
Speaker:from
Speaker:the
Speaker:podium,
Speaker:while
Speaker:in
Speaker:the
Speaker:far
Speaker:corner,
Speaker:there
Speaker:stands
Speaker:the
Speaker:baptismal
Speaker:font.
I 
exhale
Speaker:again,
Speaker:my
Speaker:heart
Speaker:pumping
Speaker:in
Speaker:my
Speaker:chest
Speaker:as
Speaker:I
Speaker:struggle
Speaker:to
Speaker:get
Speaker:my
Speaker:bearings.
Speaker:I’ve
Speaker:been
Speaker:in
Speaker:plenty
Speaker:of
Speaker:churches,
Speaker:but
Speaker:there’s
Speaker:always
Speaker:something
Speaker:unnerving
Speaker:about
Speaker:being
Speaker:in
Speaker:one
Speaker:alone.
“Hello!” 
I
Speaker:call
Speaker:out
Speaker:again. “Are
Speaker:you
Speaker:there,
Speaker:Reverend?”
Speaker:But
Speaker:still
Speaker:there
Speaker:is
Speaker:silence.
I 
pluck
Speaker:my
Speaker:phone
Speaker:from
Speaker:my
Speaker:and
Speaker:flick
Speaker:on
Speaker:the
Speaker:torch,
Speaker:hoping
Speaker:its
Speaker:light
Speaker:will
Speaker:assuage
Speaker:my
Speaker:fears.
Speaker:I
Speaker:swirl
Speaker:it
Speaker:around
Speaker:the
Speaker:empty
Speaker:nave
Speaker:and
Speaker:let
Speaker:it
Speaker:settle
Speaker:on
Speaker:a
Speaker:rack
Speaker:in
Speaker:the
Speaker:corner.
Speaker:A
Speaker:handful
Speaker:of
Speaker:candles
Speaker:blink
Speaker:invitingly
Speaker:back
Speaker:and
Speaker:I
Speaker:hone
Speaker:in
Speaker:upon
Speaker:them
Speaker:like
Speaker:an
Speaker:aircraft
Speaker:coming
Speaker:into
Speaker:land.
I 
watch
Speaker:the
Speaker:flames
Speaker:dance
Speaker:as
Speaker:I
Speaker:place
Speaker:my
Speaker:coin
Speaker:in
Speaker:the
Speaker:box.
Speaker:It
Speaker:will
Speaker:do
Speaker:little
Speaker:to
Speaker:save
Speaker:the
Speaker:church,
Speaker:but
Speaker:it
Speaker:may
Speaker:save
Speaker:my
Speaker:soul.
Speaker:I
Speaker:then
Speaker:scoff,
Speaker:knowing
Speaker:it
Speaker:will
Speaker:take
Speaker:much
Speaker:more
Speaker:than
Speaker:a
Speaker:dollar
Speaker:for
Speaker:my
Speaker:soul
Speaker:to
Speaker:be
Speaker:redeemed.  
I 
pick up
Speaker:a
Speaker:fresh
Speaker:candle
Speaker:and
Speaker:touch its
Speaker:wick
Speaker:to
Speaker:another,
Speaker:placing
Speaker:it
Speaker:delicately
Speaker:in
Speaker:an
Speaker:empty
Speaker:holder
Speaker:before
Speaker:taking
Speaker:a
Speaker:step
Speaker:back.
My 
stomach
Speaker:tightens and
Speaker:my
Speaker:throat
Speaker:runs
Speaker:dry as
Speaker:I
Speaker:follow
Speaker:the
Speaker:light
Speaker:darting
Speaker:around
Speaker:the
Speaker:room.
Speaker:Its
Speaker:movement
Speaker:is
Speaker:hypnotic
Speaker:and
Speaker:I
Speaker:get entranced
Speaker:by
Speaker:its
Speaker:spell,
Speaker:the
Speaker:gold
Speaker:shimmering
Speaker:and
Speaker:shining
Speaker:like
Speaker:a
Speaker:beacon
Speaker:from
Speaker:heaven.
Speaker:The air
Speaker:turns
Speaker:cold,
Speaker:but
Speaker:I
Speaker:fail
Speaker:to
Speaker:perceive
Speaker:the
Speaker:change,
Speaker:captivated
Speaker:as
Speaker:I
Speaker:am
Speaker:by
Speaker:the
Speaker:enchanting
Speaker:dance.
Somewhere 
in
Speaker:the
Speaker:ether,
Speaker:a
Speaker:rumble
Speaker:approaches,
Speaker:but
Speaker:I
Speaker:don’t
Speaker:notice
Speaker:the
Speaker:avalanche
Speaker:descending
Speaker:upon
Speaker:me.
Speaker:Still
Speaker:I
Speaker:remain
Speaker:transfixed,
Speaker:catatonic
Speaker:to
Speaker:the
Speaker:flame,
Speaker:as
Speaker:I
Speaker:watch
Speaker:the
Speaker:smoke
Speaker:twisting
Speaker:and
Speaker:twirling
Speaker:in
Speaker:the
Speaker:reverential
Speaker:air.
Speaker:I
Speaker:inhale
Speaker:and
Speaker:swear
Speaker:it
Speaker:becomes
Speaker:part
Speaker:of
Speaker:me,
Speaker:as
Speaker:if
Speaker:two
Speaker:souls
Speaker:have
Speaker:become
Speaker:infused
Speaker:into
Speaker:one.
In 
the
Speaker:distance
Speaker:I
Speaker:hear
Speaker:creaking,
Speaker:then
Speaker:a
Speaker:door
Speaker:slamming
Speaker:shut.
Speaker:I
Speaker:snap
Speaker:out
Speaker:of
Speaker:my
Speaker:trance
Speaker:and
Speaker:blink
Speaker:at
Speaker:the
Speaker:exit.
Speaker:It
Speaker:takes
Speaker:a
Speaker:second
Speaker:to
Speaker:compute
Speaker:but
Speaker:then
Speaker:I’m
Speaker:dashing
Speaker:towards
Speaker:it,
Speaker:my
Speaker:heart
Speaker:pounding
Speaker:as
Speaker:fast
Speaker:as
Speaker:my
Speaker:feet
Speaker:in
Speaker:my
Speaker:desire
Speaker:to
Speaker:escape.
When 
I
Speaker:arrive,
Speaker:my
Speaker:worst
Speaker:fears
Speaker:are
Speaker:confirmed.
Speaker:I
Speaker:shake
Speaker:at
Speaker:the
Speaker:handle,
Speaker:but
Speaker:the
Speaker:wood
Speaker:doesn’t
Speaker:budge.
Speaker:I
Speaker:bang
Speaker:on
Speaker:the
Speaker:door,
Speaker:but
Speaker:there
Speaker:is
Speaker:no-one
Speaker:to
Speaker:hear.
Speaker:I
Speaker:scrabble
Speaker:at
Speaker:the
Speaker:slats,
Speaker:but
Speaker:everything
Speaker:holds
Speaker:firm.
In 
panic
Speaker:I
Speaker:dart
Speaker:towards
Speaker:the
Speaker:altar,
Speaker:desperately
Speaker:hoping
Speaker:to
Speaker:find
Speaker:another
Speaker:way
Speaker:out.
Speaker:The
Speaker:wind
Speaker:rattles
Speaker:the
Speaker:windows and
Speaker:seeps
Speaker:its
Speaker:way
Speaker:in,
Speaker:the
Speaker:church
Speaker:turning
Speaker:increasingly
Speaker:bitter
Speaker:with
Speaker:each
Speaker:passing
Speaker:second.
I 
look
Speaker:up
Speaker:and
Speaker:see
Speaker:the
Speaker:light of
Speaker:the
Speaker:moon
Speaker:streaming
Speaker:through
Speaker:the
Speaker:stained
Speaker:glass,
Speaker:illuminating
Speaker:a
Speaker:scene
Speaker:I
Speaker:know
Speaker:only
Speaker:too
Speaker:well.
Speaker:The
Speaker:Book
Speaker:of
Speaker:Revelation.
Speaker:The
Speaker:Day
Speaker:of
Speaker:Judgement.
Speaker:Shadows
Speaker:cast
Speaker:down
Speaker:upon
Speaker:me
Speaker:from
Speaker:a
Speaker:celestial
Speaker:source.
I 
sense
Speaker:movement
Speaker:and
Speaker:immediately
Speaker:skid
Speaker:to
Speaker:a
Speaker:halt,
Speaker:knowing
Speaker:in
Speaker:that
Speaker:moment
Speaker:that
Speaker:I’m
Speaker:no
Speaker:longer
Speaker:alone.
“Hello,” 
I
Speaker:call,
Speaker:but
Speaker:again
Speaker:no-one
Speaker:replies.
Speaker:My
Speaker:sense
Speaker:of
Speaker:unease
Speaker:continues
Speaker:to
Speaker:grow.
I 
look
Speaker:into
Speaker:my
Speaker:phone
Speaker:and
Speaker:see
Speaker:my
Speaker:terrified
Speaker:face
Speaker:staring
Speaker:back.
Speaker:I
Speaker:jab
Speaker:at
Speaker:the
Speaker:screen
Speaker:in
Speaker:the
Speaker:hope
Speaker:of
Speaker:divining
Speaker:salvation,
Speaker:but
Speaker:can
Speaker:only
Speaker:type
Speaker:two
Speaker:digits
Speaker:before
Speaker:it
Speaker:suddenly
Speaker:goes
Speaker:dead.
Speaker:I
Speaker:curse,
Speaker:knowing
Speaker:I
Speaker:should
Speaker:have
Speaker:charged
Speaker:it
Speaker:up
Speaker:in
Speaker:the
Speaker:car.
My 
legs
Speaker:start
Speaker:to
Speaker:quiver
Speaker:as
Speaker:she
Speaker:slinks
Speaker:out
Speaker:of
Speaker:the
Speaker:shadows,
Speaker:like
Speaker:a
Speaker:snake
Speaker:slowly
Speaker:sliding
Speaker:its
Speaker:way
Speaker:into
Speaker:view.
Speaker:My
Speaker:mouth
Speaker:drops
Speaker:as
Speaker:I
Speaker:absorb
Speaker:her
Speaker:new
Speaker:form;
Speaker:the
Speaker:elegant
Speaker:horse
Speaker:she
Speaker:always
Speaker:wanted
Speaker:to
Speaker:be.
Speaker:I
Speaker:look
Speaker:down
Speaker:at
Speaker:my
Speaker:own
Speaker:body
Speaker:and
Speaker:feel
Speaker:a
Speaker:deep
Speaker:sense
Speaker:of
Speaker:shame,
Speaker:like
Speaker:a
Speaker:bug
Speaker:to
Speaker:a
Speaker:spider
Speaker:caught
Speaker:within
Speaker:divine
Speaker:majesty.
Soon 
she
Speaker:is
Speaker:there,
Speaker:standing
Speaker:before
Speaker:me,
Speaker:her
Speaker:golden
Speaker:mane
Speaker:flowing,
Speaker:her
Speaker:eyes
Speaker:glowing
Speaker:with
Speaker:rage.
Speaker:Her
Speaker:pelt
Speaker:is
Speaker:angel
Speaker:white
Speaker:but
Speaker:her
Speaker:fangs
Speaker:glisten
Speaker:like
Speaker:the
Speaker:Devil’s,
Speaker:as
Speaker:saliva
Speaker:cascades
Speaker:from
Speaker:her
Speaker:quivering
Speaker:lips.
Speaker:Fire
Speaker:shoots
Speaker:from
Speaker:within,
Speaker:whipping
Speaker:up
Speaker:a
Speaker:storm,
Speaker:her
Speaker:anger
Speaker:projected
Speaker:towards
Speaker:my
Speaker:trembling
Speaker:frame.
“You!” 
she
Speaker:bellows,
Speaker:turning
Speaker:my
Speaker:heart
Speaker:cold.
She 
snorts
Speaker:as
Speaker:she
Speaker:takes
Speaker:a
Speaker:step
Speaker:towards
Speaker:me,
Speaker:her
Speaker:movement
Speaker:deliberate,
Speaker:hooves
Speaker:clomping
Speaker:on
Speaker:stone.
Speaker:The
Speaker:echo
Speaker:reverberates
Speaker:around
Speaker:the
Speaker:bare
Speaker:lithic
Speaker:walls,
Speaker:echoing
Speaker:the
Speaker:emptiness
Speaker:I
Speaker:feel
Speaker:in
Speaker:my
Speaker:soul.
Her 
head
Speaker:constantly
Speaker:flicks
Speaker:as
Speaker:she
Speaker:sizes
Speaker:me
Speaker:up,
Speaker:like
Speaker:a
Speaker:predator
Speaker:calculating
Speaker:when
Speaker:to
Speaker:pounce
Speaker:on
Speaker:its
Speaker:prey.
Speaker:I
Speaker:hear
Speaker:the
Speaker:sound
Speaker:of
Speaker:my
Speaker:breaths
Speaker:rolling
Speaker:around
Speaker:the
Speaker:church,
Speaker:but
Speaker:this
Speaker:is
Speaker:merely
Speaker:a
Speaker:breeze
Speaker:within
Speaker:her
Speaker:furious
Speaker:tempest.
I turn to run, 
but she’s on
Speaker:me
Speaker:like
Speaker:a
Speaker:flash,
Speaker:pinning
Speaker:me
Speaker:down
Speaker:and
Speaker:holding
Speaker:me
Speaker:tight.
Speaker:My
Speaker:phone
Speaker:shatters
Speaker:and
Speaker:scatters
Speaker:across
Speaker:the
Speaker:hard
Speaker:floor
Speaker:as
Speaker:her
Speaker:weight
Speaker:grinds
Speaker:me
Speaker:into
Speaker:the
Speaker:unforgiving
Speaker:flagstones.
Speaker:I
Speaker:shudder
Speaker:as
Speaker:the
Speaker:coldness
Speaker:of
Speaker:the
Speaker:masonry
Speaker:seeps
Speaker:into
Speaker:my
Speaker:stomach,
Speaker:in
Speaker:sharp
Speaker:contrast
Speaker:to
Speaker:the
Speaker:heat
Speaker:emanating
Speaker:from
Speaker:above.
She 
tears
Speaker:into
Speaker:my
Speaker:clothes
Speaker:with
Speaker:voracious
Speaker:teeth,
Speaker:stripping
Speaker:me
Speaker:clean
Speaker:like
Speaker:a
Speaker:piece
Speaker:of
Speaker:skewered
Speaker:meat.
Speaker:She
Speaker:flips
Speaker:me
Speaker:over
Speaker:and
Speaker:cuts
Speaker:a
Speaker:stare
Speaker:deep
Speaker:into
Speaker:my
Speaker:eyes.
Speaker:For
Speaker:a
Speaker:few
Speaker:seconds,
Speaker:she
Speaker:falters
Speaker:then
Speaker:those
Speaker:daggers
Speaker:of
Speaker:ice
Speaker:melt
Speaker:away,
Speaker:her
Speaker:bitterness
Speaker:diluted
Speaker:as
Speaker:she
Speaker:recalls
Speaker:our
Speaker:shared
Speaker:past.
Speaker:I
Speaker:look
Speaker:back
Speaker:and
Speaker:drown
Speaker:in
Speaker:a
Speaker:familiar
Speaker:hue,
Speaker:my
Speaker:fear
Speaker:evaporating
Speaker:within
Speaker:a
Speaker:shared
Speaker:familiarity.
Speaker:Her
Speaker:eyes
Speaker:were
Speaker:the
Speaker:thing
Speaker:I
Speaker:loved
Speaker:most
Speaker:about
Speaker:her
Speaker:and
Speaker:I
Speaker:find
Speaker:myself
Speaker:falling
Speaker:in
Speaker:love
Speaker:once
Speaker:again.
She 
smiles
Speaker:softly
Speaker:and
Speaker:I
Speaker:smile
Speaker:in
Speaker:return,
Speaker:our
Speaker:previous
Speaker:affection
Speaker:quelling
Speaker:her wrath.
Speaker:My
Speaker:heart
Speaker:seems
Speaker:to
Speaker:heal
Speaker:for
Speaker:the
Speaker:first
Speaker:time
Speaker:in
Speaker:months;
Speaker:since
Speaker:the
Speaker:day
Speaker:I first
Speaker:realised
Speaker:that
Speaker:she
Speaker:would
Speaker:never
Speaker:come
Speaker:back.
Speaker:I
Speaker:blink,
Speaker:amazed
Speaker:to
Speaker:see
Speaker:her
Speaker:this
Speaker:close
Speaker:again,
Speaker:even
Speaker:though
Speaker:I’m
Speaker:dumbfounded
Speaker:by
Speaker:her
Speaker:different
Speaker:frame.
Speaker:I
Speaker:always
Speaker:knew
Speaker:she
Speaker:had
Speaker:an
Speaker:affinity
Speaker:for
Speaker:horses,
Speaker:but
Speaker:not
Speaker:once
Speaker:did
Speaker:I
Speaker:think
Speaker:she’d
Speaker:actually
Speaker:transform.
Speaker:Her
Speaker:eyes
Speaker:and
Speaker:her scent
Speaker:might
Speaker:be
Speaker:all
Speaker:I
Speaker:recognise
Speaker:now,
Speaker:but
Speaker:I
Speaker:know
Speaker:in
Speaker:my
Speaker:heart
Speaker:this
Speaker:is
Speaker:her
Speaker:true
Speaker:spiritual
Speaker:form.
She 
nuzzles
Speaker:my
Speaker:cheek
Speaker:softly,
Speaker:her
Speaker:breath
Speaker:a
Speaker:delicate
Speaker:kiss
Speaker:on
Speaker:my
Speaker:neck.
Speaker:My
Speaker:heart
Speaker:is
Speaker:still
Speaker:pounding,
Speaker:but
Speaker:more
Speaker:in
Speaker:desire
Speaker:than
Speaker:in
Speaker:fear.
Speaker:Lascivious
Speaker:thoughts
Speaker:flash
Speaker:through
Speaker:my
Speaker:mind
Speaker:and
Speaker:a
Speaker:sharp
Speaker:pang
Speaker:of
Speaker:shame
Speaker:cuts
Speaker:through
Speaker:my
Speaker:soul.
Speaker:I
Speaker:look
Speaker:around
Speaker:and
Speaker:wonder
Speaker:whether
Speaker:this
Speaker:is
Speaker:right
Speaker:in
Speaker:a
Speaker:church,
Speaker:but
Speaker:I’m
Speaker:long
Speaker:past
Speaker:repentance
Speaker:so
Speaker:I
Speaker:surrender
Speaker:to
Speaker:lust.
Her 
tail
Speaker:swishes
Speaker:idly
Speaker:down
Speaker:my
Speaker:side
Speaker:as
Speaker:our
Speaker:lips
Speaker:casually
Speaker:meet,
Speaker:a
Speaker:familiar
Speaker:smell
Speaker:of
Speaker:lavender
Speaker:infecting
Speaker:the
Speaker:air.
Speaker:I
Speaker:close
Speaker:my
Speaker:eyes
Speaker:as
Speaker:our
Speaker:tongues
Speaker:dance
Speaker:tangoes
Speaker:together,
Speaker:while
Speaker:my
Speaker:hands
Speaker:follow
Speaker:the
Speaker:contours
Speaker:of
Speaker:her
Speaker:body
Speaker:from
Speaker:her
Speaker:neck
Speaker:to
Speaker:her
Speaker:hips.
She 
clambers
Speaker:on
Speaker:top
Speaker:of
Speaker:me
Speaker:and
Speaker:grinds
Speaker:against
Speaker:my
Speaker:crotch.
Speaker:My
Speaker:mouth
Speaker:turns
Speaker:into
Speaker:dust
Speaker:as
Speaker:my
Speaker:cock
Speaker:rises
Speaker:to
Speaker:meet
Speaker:her.
Speaker:There’s
Speaker:a
Speaker:warmth
Speaker:between
Speaker:us
Speaker:that
Speaker:threatens
Speaker:to
Speaker:ignite,
Speaker:like
Speaker:two
Speaker:sticks
Speaker:rubbing
Speaker:together
Speaker:in
Speaker:the
Speaker:depths
Speaker:of
Speaker:desire.
I 
gasp
Speaker:as
Speaker:moist
Speaker:lips
Speaker:caress
Speaker:the
Speaker:tip
Speaker:of
Speaker:my
Speaker:dick,
Speaker:massaging it
Speaker:gently
Speaker:like
Speaker:she
Speaker:does
Speaker:with
Speaker:my
Speaker:tongue.
Speaker:I
Speaker:sigh
Speaker:into
Speaker:our
Speaker:kiss
Speaker:as
Speaker:she
Speaker:lowers
Speaker:herself
Speaker:onto
Speaker:me,
Speaker:shifting
Speaker:so
Speaker:slightly
Speaker:so
Speaker:she
Speaker:can
Speaker:get
Speaker:the
Speaker:purchase
Speaker:she
Speaker:needs.
She 
stops
Speaker:for
Speaker:a
Speaker:while
Speaker:and
Speaker:time
Speaker:does
Speaker:as
Speaker:well,
Speaker:the
Speaker:silence
Speaker:of
Speaker:the
Speaker:church
Speaker:becoming
Speaker:consuming.
Speaker:I
Speaker:count
Speaker:down
Speaker:the
Speaker:seconds
Speaker:through
Speaker:the
Speaker:pounding
Speaker:in
Speaker:my
Speaker:head,
Speaker:the
Speaker:anticipation
Speaker:rising
Speaker:with
Speaker:our
Speaker:combined heat.
She 
lifts
Speaker:her
Speaker:legs
Speaker:up
Speaker:as
Speaker:our
Speaker:lips
Speaker:slowly
Speaker:part,
Speaker:a
Speaker:trail
Speaker:of
Speaker:saliva
Speaker:testament
Speaker:to
Speaker:our
Speaker:bond.
Speaker:The
Speaker:air
Speaker:starts
Speaker:to
Speaker:feel
Speaker:heavy,
Speaker:as
Speaker:if
Speaker:ready
Speaker:to
Speaker:be
Speaker:defiled,
Speaker:its
Speaker:holiness
Speaker:about
Speaker:to
Speaker:be
Speaker:tainted
Speaker:by
Speaker:the
Speaker:most
Speaker:carnal
Speaker:of
Speaker:acts.
I 
look
Speaker:into
Speaker:her
Speaker:eyes
Speaker:and
Speaker:grin.
Speaker:She
Speaker:smiles
Speaker:in
Speaker:return
Speaker:and
Speaker:we’re
Speaker:at
Speaker:one
Speaker:once
Speaker:again.
Speaker:She
Speaker:lowers
Speaker:herself
Speaker:down
Speaker:and
Speaker:starts
Speaker:to
Speaker:build
Speaker:up
Speaker:a
Speaker:rhythm,
Speaker:rocking
Speaker:backwards
Speaker:and
Speaker:forwards
Speaker:in
Speaker:time
Speaker:to
Speaker:my
Speaker:groans.
Speaker:They
Speaker:seem
Speaker:so
Speaker:hollow
Speaker:and
Speaker:empty
Speaker:in
Speaker:this
Speaker:cavernous
Speaker:space,
Speaker:but
Speaker:in
Speaker:the
Speaker:depths
Speaker:of
Speaker:my
Speaker:heart,
Speaker:they
Speaker:are
Speaker:anything
Speaker:but.
She 
moves
Speaker:her
Speaker:muzzle
Speaker:towards
Speaker:me
Speaker:and
Speaker:nickers
Speaker:at
Speaker:my
Speaker:throat,
Speaker:her
Speaker:rocking
Speaker:unhindered
Speaker:by
Speaker:her
Speaker:shifting
Speaker:of
Speaker:pose.
Speaker:Still
Speaker:she
Speaker:keeps
Speaker:pounding
Speaker:as
Speaker:she
Speaker:leans
Speaker:in
Speaker:for
Speaker:a
Speaker:kiss,
Speaker:muffling
Speaker:my
Speaker:moans
Speaker:and
Speaker:stifling
Speaker:my
Speaker:cries.
Speaker:I
Speaker:clench
Speaker:as
Speaker:waves
Speaker:of
Speaker:pleasure
Speaker:build
Speaker:up
Speaker:in
Speaker:my
Speaker:body,
Speaker:my
Speaker:mind
Speaker:roiling
Speaker:and
Speaker:writhing
Speaker:with
Speaker:my
Speaker:quivering
Speaker:form.
Speaker:I
Speaker:know
Speaker:I’m
Speaker:getting
Speaker:close,
Speaker:but
Speaker:I
Speaker:don’t
Speaker:want
Speaker:this
Speaker:to
Speaker:end.
Speaker:I have
Speaker:missed
Speaker:her
Speaker:so
Speaker:much,
Speaker:despite
Speaker:all
Speaker:that
Speaker:has
Speaker:passed.
I 
gulp,
Speaker:feeling
Speaker:the
Speaker:dam
Speaker:starting
Speaker:to
Speaker:break,
Speaker:a
Speaker:tsunami
Speaker:rising
Speaker:from
Speaker:the
Speaker:seat
Speaker:of
Speaker:our
Speaker:love.
Speaker:She
Speaker:tilts
Speaker:her
Speaker:head
Speaker:back
Speaker:and
Speaker:her
Speaker:mane
Speaker:glistens
Speaker:in
Speaker:gold,
Speaker:like
Speaker:a
Speaker:halo
Speaker:resplendent
Speaker:in
Speaker:the
Speaker:gloom
Speaker:of
Speaker:the
Speaker:church.
Speaker:I
Speaker:look
Speaker:into
Speaker:her
Speaker:eyes
Speaker:and
Speaker:drown
Speaker:in
Speaker:those
Speaker:pools
Speaker:once
Speaker:again
Speaker:as
Speaker:I
Speaker:see
Speaker:memories
Speaker:reflected
Speaker:of
Speaker:our
Speaker:time
Speaker:spent
Speaker:together.
Five 
years
Speaker:is
Speaker:forever
Speaker:when
Speaker:you’re
Speaker:caught
Speaker:in
Speaker:a
Speaker:trap
Speaker:yet
Speaker:stuck
Speaker:with
Speaker:the
Speaker:person
Speaker:you
Speaker:can’t
Speaker:live
Speaker:without.
Speaker:Holidays,
Speaker:birthdays
Speaker:and
Speaker:Christmases
Speaker:all meld
Speaker:into
Speaker:one,
Speaker:as
Speaker:does
Speaker:renting
Speaker:then
Speaker:buying
Speaker:our very
Speaker:first
Speaker:home.
Speaker:It
Speaker:all
Speaker:flicks
Speaker:through
Speaker:my
Speaker:mind
Speaker:as
Speaker:she
Speaker:continues
Speaker:to
Speaker:pound,
Speaker:the
Speaker:reel
Speaker:getting
Speaker:quicker
Speaker:as
Speaker:I
Speaker:get
Speaker:closer
Speaker:to
Speaker:heaven.
The 
final
Speaker:few
Speaker:months
Speaker:then
Speaker:hone
Speaker:into
Speaker:view.
Speaker:The
Speaker:arguments,
Speaker:the
Speaker:battles,
Speaker:the
Speaker:anger
Speaker:and
Speaker:strife.
Speaker:The
Speaker:guilt,
Speaker:the
Speaker:envy,
Speaker:the
Speaker:crippling
Speaker:pain.
Speaker:Then
Speaker:the
Speaker:day
Speaker:I
Speaker:found
Speaker:out that
Speaker:she’d
Speaker:cheated
Speaker:on
Speaker:me.
It 
all
Speaker:comes
Speaker:flooding
Speaker:back,
Speaker:wave
Speaker:after
Speaker:wave,
Speaker:building
Speaker:and
Speaker:building
Speaker:until
Speaker:I’m
Speaker:swept
Speaker:away
Speaker:by
Speaker:the
Speaker:flood.
Speaker:My
Speaker:heart
Speaker:turns
Speaker:to
Speaker:ice
Speaker:and
Speaker:I
Speaker:want
Speaker:this
Speaker:to
Speaker:stop,
Speaker:but
Speaker:I’m
Speaker:no
Speaker:longer
Speaker:in
Speaker:control
Speaker:of
Speaker:my
Speaker:desires
Speaker:or
Speaker:my
Speaker:life.
Speaker:She’s
Speaker:given
Speaker:me
Speaker:no
Speaker:choice,
Speaker:just
Speaker:like
Speaker:I
Speaker:did
Speaker:with
Speaker:her,
Speaker:and
Speaker:now
Speaker:it
Speaker:is
Speaker:time
Speaker:for
Speaker:me
Speaker:to
Speaker:repay
Speaker:my
Speaker:debt.
I’m 
torn
Speaker:from
Speaker:my
Speaker:melancholic
Speaker:reverie
Speaker:as
Speaker:she
Speaker:roars
Speaker:in
Speaker:my
Speaker:face,
Speaker:just
Speaker:at
Speaker:the
Speaker:point
Speaker:when
Speaker:I
Speaker:tip
Speaker:over
Speaker:the
Speaker:edge.
Speaker:Flames
Speaker:shoot
Speaker:from
Speaker:within
Speaker:her
Speaker:as
Speaker:rough
Speaker:hooves
Speaker:scratch
Speaker:down
Speaker:my
Speaker:body,
Speaker:tearing
Speaker:my
Speaker:flesh
Speaker:despite
Speaker:my
Speaker:howls
Speaker:and
Speaker:my
Speaker:screams.
Speaker:The
Speaker:warmth
Speaker:of
Speaker:her body
Speaker:intermixes with the
Speaker:heat
Speaker:of
Speaker:my
Speaker:blood,
Speaker:which
Speaker:flows
Speaker:rivers
Speaker:of
Speaker:red
Speaker:onto
Speaker:the
Speaker:masonry
Speaker:below.
Speaker:It
Speaker:trickles
Speaker:away
Speaker:and
Speaker:pools
Speaker:at
Speaker:the
Speaker:base
Speaker:of
Speaker:the
Speaker:font,
Speaker:death
Speaker:framing
Speaker:birth
Speaker:in
Speaker:the
Speaker:cycle
Speaker:of
Speaker:life.
I 
try
Speaker:to
Speaker:blink
Speaker:back
Speaker:the
Speaker:tears
Speaker:but
Speaker:they
Speaker:cascade
Speaker:from
Speaker:my
Speaker:body
Speaker:like
Speaker:all
Speaker:my
Speaker:past
Speaker:sins.
Speaker:It
Speaker:seems
Speaker:to
Speaker:last
Speaker:for
Speaker:eternity, yet
Speaker:it
Speaker:happens
Speaker:so
Speaker:fast.
Speaker:Through
Speaker:the
Speaker:shimmering
Speaker:translucence,
Speaker:I
Speaker:see
Speaker:her
Speaker:form
Speaker:disappear,
Speaker:fading
Speaker:into
Speaker:the
Speaker:ether
Speaker:and
Speaker:leaving
Speaker:me
Speaker:detached
Speaker:once
Speaker:again.
I 
can’t
Speaker:let
Speaker:that
Speaker:happen,
Speaker:I’ve
Speaker:been
Speaker:alone
Speaker:long
Speaker:enough.
Speaker:Her
Speaker:spirit
Speaker:dances
Speaker:towards
Speaker:me
Speaker:and
Speaker:I
Speaker:take
Speaker:a
Speaker:deep
Speaker:breath,
Speaker:letting
Speaker:her
Speaker:seep
Speaker:through
Speaker:my
Speaker:body
Speaker:in
Speaker:the
Speaker:hope
Speaker:we’ll
Speaker:be
Speaker:together
Speaker:forever.
I 
look
Speaker:over
Speaker:to the
Speaker:rack
Speaker:and
Speaker:see
Speaker:the
Speaker:candles
Speaker:casually
Speaker:flicker,
Speaker:beams
Speaker:from
Speaker:a
Speaker:lighthouse
Speaker:mocking
Speaker:the
Speaker:shipwreck
Speaker:below.
Speaker:One
Speaker:by
Speaker:one,
Speaker:they
Speaker:slowly
Speaker:burn
Speaker:out,
Speaker:leaving
Speaker:me
Speaker:cloaked
Speaker:in
Speaker:the
Speaker:darkness
Speaker:except
Speaker:for
Speaker:the
Speaker:light
Speaker:of
Speaker:the
Speaker:moon.
Speaker:I
Speaker:force
Speaker:a
Speaker:wan
Speaker:smile
Speaker:as
Speaker:I
Speaker:lie
Speaker:on
Speaker:the
Speaker:ledger,
Speaker:knowing
Speaker:I’ll
Speaker:pay
Speaker:with
Speaker:my
Speaker:body
Speaker:for
Speaker:my
Speaker:multitude
Speaker:of
Speaker:sins.
Speaker:For
Speaker:a
Speaker:moment,
Speaker:I’m
Speaker:calm,
Speaker:intoxicated
Speaker:by
Speaker:love,
Speaker:but
Speaker:I
Speaker:soon
Speaker:feel
Speaker:her
Speaker:poison
Speaker:coursing
Speaker:within.
I 
look
Speaker:up
Speaker:at
Speaker:the
Speaker:window
Speaker:and
Speaker:recall
Speaker:Revelations
Speaker:once
Speaker:more,
Speaker:desperately
Speaker:hoping
Speaker:the
Speaker:other
Speaker:three
Speaker:horses
Speaker:won’t
Speaker:visit
Speaker:me
Speaker:too.
Speaker:My
Speaker:body
Speaker:is
Speaker:in
Speaker:agony,
Speaker:my
Speaker:soul
Speaker:excoriated
Speaker:from
Speaker:within,
Speaker:but
Speaker:deep
Speaker:down
Speaker:I
Speaker:know
Speaker:it’s
Speaker:the
Speaker:least
Speaker:I
Speaker:deserve.
I 
did
Speaker:kill
Speaker:her,
Speaker:after
Speaker:all.
 
This 
was “Votive” by Packwolf Lupestripe, read for you by Ta’kom Ironhoof, the
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